twentieth-century Southern fiction, i.e., post Faulkner and OâConnor. Heâs writing about Barry Hannahâs obsession with J. E. B. Stuart in Airships , and Padgett Powellâs with Nathan Bedford Forrest in Mrs. Hollingsworthâs Men . Also âShilohâ by Bobbie Ann Mason, where the woman leaves the trucker after they visit the hallowed grounds, etc.âthough the way things have been going these past few months, itâs not clear Zacharyâs writing anything about anybody. Heâs been completely blocked.
We live together in a third-floor apartment near campus and are both ABD. Weâve been dating for about three years, and engaged for exactly seven weeks. Itâs Friday night. Weâre getting homeâlateâfrom a reception at the school followed by a few nightcaps with some of our fellow grad students. Both of us are drunk, and Iâve got this idea in my head that we should do our own version of the truth session from âWater Liars,â that Barry Hannah story where the husband and the wife tell each other about their sexual pasts.
At first Zachary doesnât want to, but I kind of stick it to him so he says, Okay, sure. So I get another set of nightcaps going and we start. But the thing of it is, even though weâre about the same age as the people in the story, that couple had been married for ten years already. What I mean is that they had plenty ofâhow to put this?âdistance from what they were talking about. And of course the point of âWater Liarsâ is how the wifeâs news sends the husband for a brutal loop anywayâdistance nothing. Distance be damned.
Zachary proposed to me in Locust Grove, Virginia, about four hours down from Philly. We were on a kind of vision quest for his project (the truth session hardly our first experiment with voodoo academia), visiting the grave of Stonewall Jacksonâs arm at Ellwood ManorâJackson himself of course lying in Lexington in a cemetery that bears his name.
Iâd looked online and found a couple of wineries nearby in Spotsylvania and a place in town to stay. Not exactly two weeks in Paris, or even a long weekend in the Poconos, but it was something: what we could swing.
The funny thingâwell, one funny thingâabout the grave of Stonewall Jacksonâs arm is that it is not, technically, a grave anymore, and indeed it may never have been. Nobodyâs sure. Weâd read online that in 1998 the park service dug up the plot to install a piece of concrete to keep looters out, and when they did this they discovered that the legendary metal box containing the arm, the very thing they meant to protect, wasnât there to be protected. But Zachary said this didnât change his desire to see the site. If it was a fraud, he said, that was interesting, too, albeit in a different way.
Forgive me one last digression, but my inner second-wave feminist thinks itâs obscene that Iâve spent this much time discussing my boyfriendâsâahem, fiancéâsâwork without mentioning my own. And who am I to say sheâs wrong? So. My work concerns the appropriation of mythological and folk motifs for use in massively multiplayer online role-playing games. I buy high-level characters from burnt-out gamers, and these allow me access to the most remote realms of the virtual worlds without my having to spend thousands of hours building up experience points in a half dozen different games.
Zachary played Spells of Evermore 3 with me once. I had a barbarian warrior and a wood elf druid, and I needed him to play the druid, backing me up while I fought this one particular dragon. His job was to alternately cast ensnaring vines on the monster and healing spells on me. So basically he had to press two buttons. But the dragon had these minions and one of them was a necromancer and things got out of hand, and I admit I may have overreacted when we both got killed, but