died?â
Not when it was asked so gently, so compassionately, so mindful of it being difficult for her to talk about.
She sighed. âIt was an accident at a building site. A faulty crane, a dropped girderâ¦â But she couldnât bring herself to go into the details, so she said, âWe were both working for the same construction companyâ I ran the office, Pete was the electrical foreman, so he was in the field most of the time. Sometimes I had paperwork that would take me into the on-site officeâthat was always set up in a trailer that stayed on a big jobââ
âWere you there when it happened?â Flint asked, his frown lines deep with horror on her behalf.
âI was,â she said, her voice cracking even though it was barely above a whisper. âThankfully I didnât see it, but I heard workman shouting, running, yelling for someone to call for an ambulance, which I did before I ever left the trailer or knew it was Pete I was calling forâ¦â
âIâm so sorry,â Flint said with heartfelt sympathy.
âHe literally never knew what hit him, which was a blessing, I think. And I didnât have to see himâthe owner of the company kept me away until they had Pete in the ambulance. I rode to the hospital holding his handâ¦â
Okay, she couldnât talk about that without breaking down, and she didnât want to break down. Sheâd done more than her share of crying. So she swallowed hard and said, âThings are pretty much a blur for me from there.â
âThatâs probably a blessing, too, in this case.â
âI know my folks were at the hospital by the time I got there. Kelsey wasnât living in Red Rock then, but she wasnât far away and she was at home with the kids by the time my folks brought me back. Telling them was the hardest thing Iâd ever done.â
âThis was how long ago?â
âA little over two years.â
âWere the kids even old enough to understand?â
âAdam was only a baby, so no. He doesnât even remember Pete except through pictures and stories Iâve told him. Braden and Bethany were two and a half, so they didnât really get it either. For a long time they just kept asking where Daddy was, when he was coming home, and weâd have to tell them all over again, try to help them understandââ
âBut Ella, she was five, right?â
âRight. She knew exactly what was going on, poor thing.â And that, too, brought the sting of tears to Jessieâs eyes. But in two years sheâd learned well how to hold them at bay. âElla went back and forth between her own grief and putting up a strong front. Half the time sheplayed parentâhelping with the other kids, making an attempt to look after meâ¦â
âRoss.â
Jessie raised her eyebrows at Flint in question to his oldest brotherâs name.
âRoss did that in my family,â Flint explained. âWe all took care of each other, but it was Ross who led the way, who played parent.â
Again Jessie wasnât sure exactly why that had been necessary, but not knowing the details, she assumed that it had something to do with his motherâs overall less-than-stellar reputation.
âI suppose,â Jessie said then, âthat thatâs whatâs going on now, tooâ Ella is feeling protective. And maybe a little territorial.â
âSo weâre being pushed and pulled,â Flint said then with a knowing smile.
Jessie thought she knew what he meant, but she didnât want to assume too much so she merely repeated, âPushed and pulled?â
âElla wants to pull you away, to keep you to herself. But thereâs a lot of pushing going on with Kelsey, and now Coop and tonight your parents, tooâ¦â
âI know, Iâm sorry,â she apologized for the second time. âI was hoping maybe you hadnât