pretend that the end wasnât staring them in the face.
And heâd gone along for the most part. He was tempted to continue to play the game theyâd somehow slipped into. To keep pretending that this was nothing more than a bad case of flu. That heâd be back walking the land in a week or two.
God knew, pretense was more comforting than truth. But there were a few things he needed to say to her, while he still could.
âLily, honeyâ¦â
As if she could read his mind, she shook her head. âNo, donât you start telling me goodbye, Ryan Fortune. Because I donât want to hear it. Youâre not going anywhere. Youâre not going to leave me. I wonât allow it. Youâll stay right here until I say different. You understand me?â
He chuckled, and the sensation rippled through his aching body like a fever. âYou always were a bossy woman.â
She sniffed, surreptitiously wiped her eyes with her fingertips, then smiled. âAnd you always were a smooth talker.â
God, heâd loved her most of his life. Those dark, exotic eyes of hers. That smooth, caramel-colored skin, the thick, heavy black hair. The smile that lit up something inside him as if it were New Yearâs Eve in Times Square.
How hard it was to let her go.
âI want you to remember, always,â he said, keeping his gaze locked with hers, âhow much I love you.â
She sucked in a gulp of air. âI know.â
He nodded briefly. âEmmettâs going to keep an eye on Linda, so donât you worry there.â
âYes, Ryan.â
He smiled again. âI must really be sick for you to agree with me so easily.â
âDamn you, Ryan, youâre making me cry again.â
He paid no attention. âAnd you make sure you get the children to help you out around here when Iâm gone.â
âYouâre not going anyââ
âLily, itâs time to stop lying.â
âI like the lies better,â she admitted.
He gave her a half smile. âHell, girl, so do I. But even I canât hold off death.â
âYou could if you tried. Damn it, Ryan, youâre the most stubborn, hardheaded, just plain cussedly determined man Iâve ever known,â she said, leaning down until her mouth was just a breath away from his. âFight this. For me. For us.â
He gave her hand a squeeze, no more than a touch of his flesh to hers. âIâm tired, Lily. I donât want to leave you, but Iâm tired.â
Her dark eyes filled with the tears sheâd been holding back for so many days. And this time she let them fall. Leaning her forehead against his, she said softly, âYou are the love of my life, Ryan Fortune. Always and forever you will be with me.â
âAlways and forever,â he repeated, then pressed this moment, this sun-washed moment of time with Lily, into his mind so that when he got wherever he was going she would be there with him.
Then his wife lay down beside him, curling into him, and Ryan Fortune counted his blessings again.
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âHeâs waiting for you.â
âThanks.â Kyra walked into Garrettâs office without even looking at Carol. It took a heck of a lot of nerve, since the woman had a stare that always made her feel like a bug being pinned to a board.
Kyra opened the door and paused, since the great man himself was on the phone. He glanced up, waved her in, but continued his conversation.
Kyra closed the door behind her and stood uncertainly where she was. Moving closer would look as though she were trying to listen in on his phone call.
Weird, she thought. Yes, theyâd agreed to forget all about the whole dancing thing. But being here in the office with him, while the memory of his arms around her was still so clear, was harder than sheâd thought it would be.
Of course, she admitted silently, sheâd proposed the whole âignore the situationâ