away from the streets. And how Chela was almost eighteen, and I was going to pay to send her to college. I wanted to tell her all about me.
âSounds like a good reason,â I said.
Maitlin picked up a photo frame from her bureau, which she stared at for nearly thirty seconds before she gave it to me. The frame held a stylish black-and-white photo of a white-haired man and a woman with Maitlinâs nose, both in their sixties. I saw the pieces of them in Sofia Maitlin, jumbled and rearranged. The photograph had caught them laughing at something off to the side.
âMom and Papi,â she said. âThey werenât perfectâan artist and an activist trying to raise a kid?âbut they gave me everything they had. Mom was always bugging me about having kids. I saw so many beautiful children the last time I was here, and I havenât been able to get them out of my head. But the time wasnât right. Iâm ready now. Today, I want to see those children again. I want to bring a child home and give her everything I was blessed to have. More.â
It was only my imagination, but in the photo I thought her motherâs eyes laughed.
âChildren First?â I said, remembering. âAre they reputable?â
âTheyâve only done two transnational adoptions, but my lawyers said they check out. Itâs a very small agency run by a private mission.â
âWill you take the baby home today?â It didnât seem likely; there were no toys or baby gear in sight. But the baby would change our scenario, so I had to ask.
Maitlin sighed, gently removing the photo from my hands to return it to its place. âI wish! But itâs not possible. There are piles of bureaucracy ahead. It can take five years to get approved here, they told me. But a journey of a thousand miles begins with a single step.â
I hoped it would work out for her. I didnât want Sofia Maitlin to leave South Africa with my kind of disappointment.
Maitlin looked up at my face, studying me.
âWant to see the real reason I always book this room in Cape Town?â she said, and moved away, expecting me to follow. I did. She took me to the spacious bathroomâs doorway.
There, in a corner by a large white soaking tub, were two huge picture windows that made the room feel like it was built entirely of glass. I could imagine her bathing with nothing but the sky above her and the ocean below. The view was breathtaking from the living room and balcony, too, but the bathtub made it a private peek show. Spectacular.
There were no words for it. We stood in silence a moment, humbled by the vision of morning in Cape Town.
âThis doesnât happen often, does it?â she said thoughtfully.
âWhat doesnât happen?â
âAn instant spark.â
She was standing two feet from me, but suddenly the distance seemed much smaller.
âExcuse me?â I said.
âThe spark between two strangers. Itâs a rare, delightful thing.â Her voice was soft.
I had two warring instincts: The first, and strongest, was to lock the door and pull her into that tub with me. My next instinct was to take two steps back, toward the doorway. Training overcame them both: I did neither. I didnât move. This was a game, and I wanted it to play out.
âAnd because itâs so rare,â she went on, âweâre supposed to think itmeans something. Weâre two attractive people, two polite people, and we want to think thatâs a license to act out the dirty pictures in our heads. Iâm sure you could make a woman lose her mind for a while.â
Since I hadnât lost my mind, I had heard enough to understand where this was going. I became ice, and ice could not smell the lavender in her hair. Or wonder how her skin tasted.
âMs. Maitlin, I donât know what you think youâve heard about me . . .â
âI didnât have to hear anything.â She