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physically. My breath was still erratic, and my thoughts were everywhere.
    â€œWhat in the hell is going on?” I whispered to myself. “All these dreams and shit is bugging the hell out of me.”
    I couldn’t help but wonder if Shawn was being honest about his homosexual desires. Were they all gone? Could a man just stop being attracted to men? I mean, he has had psychological evaluation by a licensed psychologist. I checked this woman’s credentials, and she came back with a perfect record. I don’t know if I could take another blow, while trying to keep this family alive and together.
    I bowed my head and said a short prayer. “Lord, please fix this family. I can’t take this anymore. You have to do something now. Lord, I need You. Please, God, fix this. Amen.”
    As I lifted my head up, I heard Shawn open the front door to the house and come in. I heard a little exchange with the kids, and then his footsteps headed toward the kitchen. I gathered myself emotionally and prepared for his news, good or bad.

Chapter 9
Shawn
    Keep It Tight
October 29 th , 2018, 6:48 P.M .
    I walked into the kitchen totally baffled and at a loss for words. This nigga is playing me. Again ! I can’t believe the hold he has on people. It’s like he has some kind of power that keeps people spellbound with him. I can’t let this nigga do this to my family again.
    I knew the children were his, biologically, but I was their father in every sense of the word. I was paying the bills in the house they lived in. I was the one who fed and clothed them, and I wasn’t letting any psycho take them from me. Never. If he wanted a fight, then a fight was what he was going to get. I was going to beat him at his own game.
    â€œHey, baby,” Mona said as I walked in the kitchen. “How did everything go with your dad?”
    I put on a fake smile. “Everything went great.” I couldn’t possible tell her that my father was sleeping with the enemy. Again.
    I didn’t think Mona could relive the memories of the past again. She still tossed and turned in the bed at night. In fact, many nights I had to hold her tight, just so she and I could get some sleep.
    I couldn’t let her know that James wasn’t out of my system, like I’d said. I wanted him to pay for the things he did to her and me, but at the same time, I wanted him sexually too. I was torn, and there were days I just wanted to end it all. But I couldn’t just take the easy way out. I had to deal with this beast head-on.
    â€œYeah. Well, he apologized for the things that he did, and we made up right then and there. I told him that it would still take me some time to get used to him again and to be able to call him Dad. He said he understood, and we left it at that.”
    â€œOh, that is sooo good, Shawn,” she said, embracing me tightly. “I am so glad that things are getting back in order.”
    â€œMe too,” I said as I hugged her back. “I know things have been rough for us, but I think it’s time for us to move on with our lives.”
    A tear slid down her face. “You know what, baby? I was thinking the same thing earlier today. I was thinking that we should renew our vows again to rekindle the love in our relationship. We can invite the whole family and your dad even can walk me down the aisle, since my father is deceased.”
    â€œSure, Mona, baby. I was thinking about the same thing earlier,” I said with a little less enthusiasm. “We can start planning it this week coming up.”

Chapter 10
James
    Plans in Order
October 30 th , 2018, 1:40 P.M .
    I marveled at the fact that I could still toy with Shawn and manipulate him the way I wanted to. A couple of down-low cops are always a necessity on your team. They are always looking for a good time. They called me after they turned Shawn out again and said they were up for some more fun, and that any time I needed them,