them back to us. So much for easy. I got a C. Well, this sucked.
On the way out of class, I stopped by Mr. Johnsonâs desk. âIs there anything I can do to get extra points?â
He looked confused. âBut you passed.â
âHow was it today?â my mom asked when she picked me up from school.
âI donât knowâmaybe a little better?â Because of Neal I was loath to tell her how much the day had sucked. âWe could give it another week before we make any rash decisions about me transferring. At least in the regular classes I can push myself extra hard. Maybe Iâll get straight Aâs for once.â
My brother was absorbed in doing homeworkâotherwise, Iâm sure he would have scoffed at this.
Momâs cell phone beeped. It was Dad. He was at Smith College, where heâd just finished a reading of Lily at Dusk . Mom handed me the phone.
âHowâs it going?â he asked. âHow do you like Shady Grove?â
âOkay.â To change the subject from my education, I said, âItâs really pretty out here. The air feels extra fresh.â
He was not to be sidetracked. âYou might want to consider adding an all-womenâs school to your list of prospective colleges. These girls are very articulate. Smith might be out of your league, but there are some less competitive womenâs colleges with similar prestige.â
âIâm sure there are,â I said. âBut where are the boys?â
He laughed like he thought I was intentionally being hilarious. âYouâre not going to have time for boys next year.â
I gave the phone back to Mom.
âWhere are you staying tonight?â she asked Dad. There was a pause. Her mouth got tight. Then, âYouâre going to New York?â More pause. She was gripping the steering wheel like she wanted to break it. âI see,â she finally said. âWell. Weâll talk about this when you get home.â She snapped the phone shut.
âEverything okay?â I asked. We were at a stop sign now.
âItâs just thatââ She studied me for a moment. I had this sense that she was seeing me in a new light, as someone more adult, someone she could maybe trust. Then, with a weak smile, she said, âItâs just that your fatherâs writing career is proving to be a big adjustment.â
As I stayed up late working on my Language Arts essayâthe one we were supposed to be writing about the scariest thing that had ever happened to usâmy mind kept drifting off to what Mom had said about Dad. There was no denying the fact that success was changing him and also changing the dynamics of their relationship. I wondered if Mom was jealous of how well he was doing.
I also thought about my dad because the scariest thing that had ever happened to me had happened when I was with him. Back when we lived in Florida, back when Dad was simply a would-be author and had more time for us, he would occasionally take James Henry and me on these Sunday outings to give Mom a break. Though he wasnât a natural at it, he liked the idea of being an outdoorsman.
This one time he decided he wanted us to try crabbing.
I got carsick on the drive out to the Apalachicola Reserve, and when we finally got there I was too queasy to help set up the nets. âWhy donât you go for a swim?â my dad suggested. âIt might help.â
The water, coffee brown and gathering dust, was not exactly inviting. The air was hot, though, at least ninety degrees, and it wasnât even noon. The sky was a glaring shade of white.
I dipped a toe in dubiously. âIs it safe?â
âCharlotte! You canât be so afraid of everything.â
Just to prove that I wasnât a wimp, I jackknifed into the bay, making a huge splashâa fearless splash. The water was bathtub tepid and failed to cool me, but still it was wonderful to be buoyant. I kicked out a good