ways, feeling more secure the deeper I went. It was the bottom I feared mostâwho knew what lurked in the mud?
Treading water, I watched my dad and brother set up the nets. Then, they too stripped down to their bathing suits and dove into the bay. Over and over, my father tossed James Henry backward off his shoulders. My brother shrieked with delight and flew through the air like a beach ball.
I remembered when Dad had done that kid stuff with me. I was pretty youngâmaybe fiveâwhen heâd shown me how to duck dive into the waves off Cape Cod. We used to camp there sometimes. Together we would swim out past the breakers, where my feet couldnât touch the bottom. Dad had said I must be part fish. No matter how cold it was, I would stay in the water for hours. Dadâs admiration was worth a little hypothermia.
Now, after about an hour of swimming in the brackish water, we swam back in to check the crab nets. They came up empty, but the weird thing was that even the bait was gone. The last net, the one farthest out and closest to where Iâd been swimming, was snagged. I yanked and yanked, but it wouldnât budge.
âLeave it,â Dad said, gathering up the buckets. âItâs fine if we lose one.â
Whatever. Weâd been studying pollution at school, and I was not going to be responsible for the death of the environment. Besides. I wanted to impress my father. I wanted to show him that I was strong.
The net finally gave. It was heavy, but rising.
And thenâ
Two beady eyes attached to a brown snout peered at me from the end of my tether. My net was ensnared in the jaws of an alligator. Its jaws werenât but two feet from my hands.
âDadââ
My voice was just a squeak. I couldnât shout. I couldnât move. I was frozen. Paralyzed.
âI told you, Charlotteââ
Then he saw.
He was there in a flash, slicing the tether in two with the bait knife. The twine crackled when it broke. Bubbles arose from the gatorâs snout as it sank back into the murky depths. My knees buckled. Fear washed over me in waves.
This was by far and away the most afraid Iâd ever been. It was the moment I realized my dadâs judgment wasnât always sound.
My dadâs judgment could hurt me.
This was what I wrote about late into the night.
On Friday, Miss Mason called us one by one up to her desk to discuss our essays. I wasnât worried. The one thing I knew I was decent at was writing. The teachers at my school in Florida were always saying things to me like, âYou are your fatherâs daughter, Charlotte. Talent runs in families.â
The guy behind me glanced over my shoulder on his way back to his seat. âWhat did you write about?â he asked.
I told him my alligator story. âHow about you?â
âI wrote about this time in juvie when this guy held a knife to my throat.â
âYouâve been to juvie?â I asked.
He shrugged. âNo. But it makes a good story.â
âHave a seat,â Miss Mason said authoritatively, when it was my turn to talk to her. In a matter of days sheâd gotten a whole lot meaner. âYour essay is certainly very creative ,â she said, making creative sound like a euphemism for inappropriate . âBut Iâm afraid it doesnât follow the five-paragraph format. Iâm going to have to ask you to rewrite it.â
I suddenly understood why the kids on the regular track were always sleeping. They werenât missing much. If anything, they were sparing themselves.
At lunch, I couldnât stop ranting about the stupidity of all my classes.
âNo child left behind,â Mimi said, making a face at the cafeteria smell. Todayâs special: spaghetti with meat loaf balls. âIt means the teachers have to teach to the lowest common denominator. What can you do?â
âBitch about it?â I grabbed a bottle of lukewarm orange juice and