Morgenstern was the kind of man who focused on the person to whom he was speaking, which might have been the secret of the magnetism he exuded. To Joelâs credit, he didnât seem to be aware of this; or maybe he took it so for granted that he didnât even think of the effect he had on women.
In Nashville, even under the circumstances Iâd noticed how the female representatives of the media clustered around him. Maybe theyâd been thinking the father is always a likely suspect, maybe theyâd been trying to pick holes in his story, but theyâd hovered around him like hummingbirds at a big red blossom. Not too surprisingly, the police had checked over and over to see if Joel was having an affair. They hadnât found a trace of such a thing; in fact,everyone who knew Joel commented on how devoted he was to Diane. For that matter, it was universal knowledge how caring heâd been during his first wifeâs terminal illness.
Maybe because lightning had fried my brain, maybe because my standards of judgment were completely different, Joel just didnât affect me like he did most women.
Felicia Hart, whose sister had been Joelâs first wife, trailed in after Diane and Joel. I remembered Felicia from my first encounter with the family. She had been trying hard to be a good aunt to Victor, the son that first marriage had produced. Sheâd been aware that Victor was a suspect in Tabithaâs disappearance, and sheâd been at the house constantly, perhaps imagining that the loss of their daughter had meant that Diane and Joel would not be able to focus on Victorâs needs and on his legal position.
âYou found her,â Joel said, taking my hand and pumping it ferociously. âGod bless you, you found her. The medical examiner says thereâs a long way to go before an official identification, but the dental charts do match. We have to keep this to ourselves, but Dr. Frierson was kind enough to let us know in person. Thank God, we can have some peace.â
This was such a different reaction from the one Iâd expected that I was unable to respond. Luckily, Tolliver was more collected.
âPlease, Diane, Joel, sit down,â he said. Tolliver is very reverent toward pregnant women.
Diane had always seemed the frailer partner in the couple, even when she wasnât so obviously carrying a child.
âLet me hug you first,â she said in her soft voice, and shewrapped her arms around me. I felt her distended belly pressing against my flat one, and I felt something wiggle while she was hugging me. After a second, I realized it was the baby, kicking against her stomach. Something deep inside me clenched in a mixture of horror and longing. I let Diane go and backed away, trying to smile at her.
Felicia Hart was no hugger, to my relief. She gave me a firm handshake, though she did put her arms around Tolliver. In fact, she muttered something in his ear. I blinked at that. âGlad to see you,â she said a bit loudly, addressing an area somewhere between us. Felicia was a single woman. I placed her in her early thirties. She had jaw-length glossy brown hair that curved forward, and her expertly cut bangs stayed where they were supposed to be. As a professional woman on her own, she could spend all her money on herself, and her clothes and makeup showed it. If I remembered correctly, Felicia was a financial adviser employed by a national company. Though I hadnât talked to her at any length, I knew Felicia would have to be both intelligent and bold to hold down so responsible a job with such success.
When we were all seated, Joel and Diane on the love seat, Felicia perched on one arm of it by Diane, and Tolliver and I in wing chairs on the other side of the coffee table, with Art settled uncomfortably on a chair set a bit aside, I realized I had to somehow proceed with a conversation.
âIâm so sorry,â I said finally, since that was the