about to swing open?
What would the ghosts of the North, in their finery, have to show him?
But this was a spring night, and the sky was gusting red, warm-orange, the sirens
howling in the valleys from Pittsfield, Lenox, and Lee—neighbors stood out on their
porches to stare up at the shower of sparks falling down on the mountainside . . .
“Like a meteor shower,” they said, “Like cinders from the Fourth of July . . .” it
was 1931, and those were the comparisons. The embers fell on and on for five hours
while kids dozed and grownups got to drink coffee and tell fire stories from other
years.
But what Lights were these? What ghosts in command? And suppose, in the next moment,
all of it, the complete night,
were
to go out of control and curtains part to show us a winter no one has guessed at. . . .
6:43:16 BDST—
in the sky right now
here is the same unfolding, just about to break through, his face deepening with
its light, everything about to rush away and he to lose himself, just as his countryside
has ever proclaimed . . . slender church steeples poised up and down all these autumn
hillsides, white rockets about to fire, only seconds of countdown away, rose windows
taking in Sunday light, elevating and washing the faces above the pulpits defining
grace, swearing
this is how it does happen—yes the great bright hand reaching out of the cloud
. . . .
• • • • • • •
On the wall, in an ornate fixture of darkening bronze, a gas jet burns, laminar and
gently singing—adjusted to what scientists of the last century called a “sensitive
flame”: invisible at the base, as it issues from its orifice, fading upward into smooth
blue light that hovers several inches above, a glimmering small cone that can respond
to the most delicate changes in the room’s air pressure. It registers visitors as
they enter and leave, each curious and civil as if the round table held some game
of chance. The circle of sitters is not at all distracted or hindered. None of your
white hands or luminous trumpets here.
Camerons officers in parade trews, blue puttees, dress kilts drift in conversing with
enlisted Americans . . . there are clergymen, Home Guard or Fire Service just off
duty, folds of wool clothing heavy with smoke smell, everyone grudging an hour’s sleep
and looking it . . . ancient Edwardian ladies in crepe de Chine, West Indians softly
plaiting vowels round less flexible chains of Russian-Jewish consonants. . . . Most
skate tangent to the holy circle, some stay, some are off again to other rooms, all
without breaking in on the slender medium who sits nearest the sensitive flame with
his back to the wall, reddish-brown curls tightening close as a skullcap, high forehead
unwrinkled, dark lips moving now effortless, now in pain:
“Once transected into the realm of Dominus Blicero, Roland found that all the signs
had turned against him. . . . Lights he had studied so well as one of you, position
and movement, now gathered there at the opposite end, all in dance . . . irrelevant
dance. None of Blicero’s traditional progress, no something new . . . alien. . . .
Roland too became conscious of the wind, as his mortality had never allowed him. Discovered
it so . . . so joyful, that the arrow must veer into it. The wind had been blowing
all year long, year after year, but Roland had felt only the secular wind . . . he
means, only his personal wind. Yet . . . Selena, the wind, the wind’s everywhere. . . .”
Here the medium breaks off, is silent awhile . . . one groan . . . a quiet, desperate
moment. “Selena. Selena. Have you gone, then?”
“No, my dear,” her cheeks mottled with previous tears, “I’m listening.”
“It’s control. All these things arise from one difficulty: control. For the first
time it was
inside
, do you see. The control is put inside. No more need to