home. For the rest, I was almost as much of a stranger on board as himself, I said. And at the moment I felt it most acutely. I felt that it would take very little to make me a suspect person in the eyes of the shipâs company.
He had turned about meantime; and we, the two strangers in the ship, faced each other in identical attitudes.
ââYour ladderââââ he murmured, after a silence. ââWhoâd have thought of finding a ladder hanging over at night in a ship anchored out here! I felt just then a very unpleasant faintness. After the life Iâve been leading for nine weeks, anybody would have got out of condition. I wasnât capable of swimming round as far as your rudder chains. And, lo and behold! there was a ladder to get hold of. After I gripped it I said to myself, âWhatâs the good?â When I saw a manâs head looking over I thought I would swim away presently and leave him shoutingâin whatever language it was. I didnât mind being looked at. IâI liked it. And then you speaking to me so quietlyâas if you had expected meâmade me hold on a little longer. It had been a confounded lonely timeâI donât mean while swimming. I was glad to talk a little to somebody that didnât belong to the Sephora. As to asking for the captain, that was a mere impulse. It could have been no use, with all the ship knowing about me and the other people pretty certain to be round here in the morning. I donât knowâI wanted to be seen, to talk with somebody, before I went on. I donât know what I would have said. . . . âFine night, isnât it?â or something of the sort.ââ
ââDo you think they will be round here presently?ââ I asked with some incredulity.
ââQuite likely,ââ he said, faintly.
He looked extremely haggard all of a sudden. His head rolled on his shoulders.
ââHâm. We shall see then. Meantime get into that bed,ââ I whispered. ââWant help? There.ââ
It was a rather high bed place with a set of drawers underneath. This amazing swimmer really needed the lift I gave him by seizing his leg. He tumbled in, rolled over on his back, and flung one arm across his eyes. And then, with his face nearly hidden, he must have looked exactly as I used to look in that bed. I gazed upon my other self for a while before drawing across carefully the two green serge curtains which ran on a brass rod. I thought for a moment of pinning them together for greater safety, but I sat down on the couch, and once there I felt unwilling to rise and hunt for a pin. I would do it in a moment. I was extremely tired, in a peculiarly intimate way, by the strain of stealthiness, by the effort of whispering and the general secrecy of this excitement. It was three oâclock by now and I had been on my feet since nine, but I was not sleepy; I could not have gone to sleep. I sat there, fagged out, looking at the curtains, trying to clear my mind of the confused sensation of being in two places at once, and greatly bothered by an exasperating knocking in my head. It was a relief to discover suddenly that it was not in my head at all, but on the outside of the door. Before I could collect myself the words ââCome inââ were out of my mouth, and the steward entered with a tray, bringing in my morning coffee. I had slept, after all, and I was so frightened that I shouted, ââThis way! I am here, steward,ââ as though he had been miles away. He put down the tray on the table next the couch and only then said, very quietly, ââI can see you are here, sir.ââ I felt him give me a keen look, but I dared not meet his eyes just then. He must have wondered why I had drawn the curtains of my bed before going to sleep on the couch. He went out, hooking the door open as usual.
I heard the crew washing decks above