Do you think I’m a whack job because I-because I suggested you put me in a diaper? It was the heat of the moment!”
“Honey, just calm down of course that’s not why I want us to see a counselor . The failed pregnancies are very u psetting for you. You are my first priority. Your safety. Your health. We will go to a specialist if the counselor thinks it’s a good idea. I know that this is a good idea. For both of us. ”
She didn’t know if she could talk to a stranger about this, but on the other hand she couldn’t keep going on as she was, she felt near breaking point. Plus, she knew when Tom spoke in that voice that his mind was made up. He was not going to bend.
“All right,” she said . “I’ll go talk to a counselor with you.”
“Frankie, it’s going to be okay. I’ll be home around ten tomorrow morning. Jeff will drop me off. Now, have you had some lunch?”
“Not yet.”
“I want you to go and get some lunch , eat it and not worry. Might be a good idea for you to go stay with Heath and Ava tonight.”
“No,” she said urgently then tempered her tone. “No, that’s okay, I don’t feel like company.”
“Okay. I will call you tonight. Pick up the phone. I love you.”
“I love you, too.”
Tom closed his cell with a frown. Damn, of all the times for him to be across the country. He could tell how upset his wife was. Her failure to get pregnant was knocking her around. He was starting to wish that he’d never agreed to try for a baby. But she’d been so insistent.
Of course, it didn’t help that Ava and Bryony were b oth pregnant.
He wanted children. Eventually. But he wondered why they’d started trying straight away , almost from the day of their wedding . He guessed he’d gotten caught up in the idea and not thought about the reality, about whether they were both truly ready for a baby. Like he’d told Frankie, they were both young, they had plenty of time. He was building up his practice and right now, he needed to concentrate on that and on his wife.
Her negative pregnancy tests each month were taking a huge toll on her. He’d noticed her fatigue and weight loss with worry. Tom vowed to pay more care and attention to her. With his practice needing so much time lately, he hadn’t been home as much as he would like to. And he was really worried about Frankie being by herself.
Not that Frankie wasn’t a capable, smart woman. She was all those things and more. She was brilliant at her job and he was so proud of her. But she didn’t always cope well with stress and worry. She tended to find other outlets to mask the effects stress was having on her, like shopping or throwing herself into work.
It had been a battle of wills when they were first married. Anytime Frankie got upset, she’d go shopping, racking up a huge bi ll. And while they were comfortable , she didn’t need half the stuff she bought , and if there was one thing Tom hated it was waste.
So each time Frankie we nt on a stress-related spree, Tom made her return everything then he’d sit her down to have a talk . Which often led to a trip over his knee. Sometimes it was only during a spanking that Frankie truly let go and re leased all her stress .
Her need to get pregnant was becoming obsessive, and he wasn’t quite sure why. He needed to get to the bottom of what was really going on with her. Both of them needed to take a step back and evaluate what they were doing and where they were going.
Frankie needed to know that whether they could have children or not, he loved her and was committed to her and his relationship.
She was his everything.
And he knew she didn’t truly understand that. She seemed to think she needed to provide him with this perfect life.
Tom let out a deep b reath. He’d handled this badly. He should have waited to talk about the counselor until he got home so he could speak to her face to face and reassure her, hold her close. Now, she was probably fretting that he thought