either, because I killed his dad this morning and his hormones are overriding his brain. I guess this isnât a situation you can plan for.
I realize for the first time that what my biology teacher said is actually true: no matter what we think or what we say or what we hope to become, at the root of everything, weâre only animals.
He finally clears his throat and scoots back, shifting his shirt over the telltale bump in his britches. I sit up and scoot back, too, pulling my knees up and clutching the old quilt to my chest for real now, knowing that the cool air, thin shirt, and bizarre rush of closeness are giving me headlights that he canât help staring at.
âSo,â I say.
âSo,â he says, and to his credit, his voice doesnât break.
âWell? You attacked me. You go first.â
âWhyâd you do it?â He looks away. âYou owe me that much.â
âIf you read the card, you know why. Thatâs why thereâs a card.â
I sweep sleep-sweaty bangs away from my forehead. It suddenly occurs to me that Iâve gone to bed with white zit paste speckled across my chin, and I mentally curse myself for being the worldâs vainest, most idiotic bounty hunter. That doesnât stop me from rubbing my chin against the quilt, hoping it will flake off.
But why do I care if I look like a freak? Why am I letting him get to me at all? Heâs just an assignment, and an easy one at that. My pity should have fled with his embarrassment. I could still end it, right now. My finger twitches on the gun under the quilt, the one heâs apparently forgotten about. He edges off my legs and sits on the end of the bed, feet firmly on the floor.
âMy dad was a dick, and he did a lot of bad things,â he says, his eyes cutting to the ceiling and walls of the truck, where tape and putty hold my favorite band posters to the dinged-up white metal. He smiles, but only for a second, barely a flash of teeth in the cloudy darkness.
âYeah, and your dad should have read the fine print when he took out credit cards from Valor Savings,â I shoot back, surreptitiously wiping my chin with the back of my hand and frowning at the grit of the zit cream thatâs stubbornly left behind.
âBanks donât kill people,â he says confidently, like heâs not used to being wrong. Something about his pompous surety makes me lash out before I can stop myself.
âYouâre right. Banks donât kill people,â I say. âThey make otherpeople do it for them in exchange for not setting their houses on fire, shooting them, and letting their mothers die a long, slow death by cancer.â
He sucks in a breath, and I know immediately that Iâve said too much. Itâs more than Iâm allowed to say, more than I meant to say.
âShit,â I mutter under my breath, hoping the camera/mic in my shirt is wadded up tightly enough under the front seat to keep me from getting in serious trouble. The Valor guy didnât mention that button at all, and the references in the paperwork are random and worded with purposeful confusion. âConstant surveillanceâ and âlimited monitoringâ and âunrecorded kills will not satisfy contract requirements.â I have no idea what that button is capable of. Just as they have no idea what Iâm capable of.
But Maxwell Beard doesnât know about the button. He just knows more about me than he should.
âIâm so sorry,â he says, and Iâm mad at him, and Iâm mad at myself, and itâs all because I canât fathom how to be angry at my broken mother and the new corporate government thatâs shaking me like a rag doll. Iâm not used to pity from supposedly rich guys, and I donât like it.
âPiss off, Max,â I say.
Confusion passes over his face.
âYou called me that before. But Max is my brother,â he says. âIâm