wouldnât kill me.â I tried to put instinctive knowledge into terms someone else might understand. âMy father isâwas the Hurogmeten. Perhaps you know what that means better than anyone else. To him it was the most important thing a human could be, better than high king, but the title was only temporary, to be given away like this ring when he died.â
âBut all men must do that,â commented Oreg reasonably. âHis father entrusted Hurog to Fenwick. He would live on through his children.â
âHe killed my grandfather,â I said. It was the first time Iâd ever said it out loud.
Everything about Oreg went still. Then he whispered, âYour grandfather was killed by bandits. Your father brought him here to die.â
âMy grandfather was struck from behind by my fatherâs arrow. My father admitted it once when he was drunk.â
Weâd been hunting, just the two of us, when I was nine or ten. Weâd camped up in the mountains, and my father began drinking as soon as weâd set up the tent. I donâtremember what led him to confess, but I still remembered the look heâd turned on me afterward. He hadnât meant to let that slip, and even then Iâd known it was dangerous knowledge. Iâd pretended I hadnât heard him, that his words had been too slurred. It might have been that slip that sent him over the edge, but Iâd come to believe his antagonism went deeper than that.
âHe saw me as a rival for Hurog. Time was his enemy, and I its standard bearer.â That sounded like something my hero Seleg might have written in his journals. It also would have sounded better on paper than it did out loud, so I tried for a less dramatic tone. âMy father didnât like to lose battles.â
I left the bed and went to the polished square of metal hanging on the wall. I looked like my father, not so startling without the Hurog blue eyes, but a younger version of my father all the same. The size came from his motherâs family, but the features were Hurog. âI was his successor, a constant reminder that he would someday lose Hurog. Iâm not certain even he realized it, but from the day I first held a sword, he thought of me as a threat. You might recall, if you were paying attention, that the beating responsible for my âchangeâ was not the first time he beat me unconscious. If it had continued, he would have killed me before I was old enough to defend myself. And I had the example of my mother to follow.â
âWhen she lost herself in dreams, he didnât beat her as much. Or visit her bed,â agreed the boy solemnly.
âMy speaking problem made my father think Iâd become an idiot, and I decided to take advantage of it.â
âWhy continue it now, after he is dead?â
I felt my way to an answer. âMy uncle rules here for the next two years. Like my father, he was raised to believe that becoming Hurogmeten is the summit of what a man can accomplish. Iâm not sure heâll want to give it back.â
âYouâre so certain heâs a villain? He was a nice boy . . .âOregâs voice dropped to a whisper. âAt least I think it was Duraugh, but sometimes I donât remember so well.â
I closed my eyes. âI donât know him, only that he has little patience with idiots. The gods know I wouldnât want an idiot in charge of Hurog, either. We live too close to the edge of survival.â I shrugged and looked at Oreg, whoâd somehow come to be crouched at my feet. âI donât trust him.â
Iâd talked more to Oreg than I ever remember talking to anyone except Ciarra. Speech was still something of an effort, and it tired me. Ironic how honesty felt much more awkward than lying.â
âTrust your instincts,â said Oreg after a moment. âIt will harm none if you remain cautious for a while yet.â
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