smells of olive oil and sausage and garlic mingling. She remembers the way he looked at her.
There are things you donât know , he said to her.
She leaves the patio and takes the phone in the living room. She drops onto the couch and dials the numbers.
âMat, itâs me.â
âWhatâs going on? How are you?â
âIâll tell you how I am,â she says. âI got a visit yesterday from the FBI. Thatâs how I am.â
âThe FBI? They came to yourââ
âListen to me, Mat. Okay? Just listen, donât talk.â
They didnât used to speak to each other like this, but itâs one of the few perks of being charged with capital murder, lots of freedom with your emotions.
âDo not talk to them under any circumstances,â she says. âIf they try to make a deal with you, donât do it. Donot even say hello to them. Donât even let them in. Just yell âFifth Amendmentâ from behind the door.â
âWith me?â Mat asks. âTheyâre going to talk to me ?â
âThey wanted to talk about you. They wanted to talk about Divalpro. Just let me take care of this. Donât you dare talk to them.â
âAlly?â Mat Pagone, her ex-husband, sounds out of breath. âDid you talk to them? Aboutâthat?â
âNo, and Iâm not going to. And neither are you. Just keep your mouth shut and remember one thing, okay?â
âWhatâs that?â
âYour daughter needs at least one parent.â She hangs up the phone and holds her breath.
ONE DAY EARLIER
SATURDAY, MAY 8
A llison is awake, in the fetal position, when the alarm surprises her at six in the morning. She probably managed a few fitful hours in there somewhere, but it feels like she hasnât slept at all. Itâs not the lack of rest but the sense that time has accelerated from last night to this morning. Everything seems to have quickened these last few weeks. Time flies when you want it to stop.
Yes, she did sleep, because she dreamt. She spoke to Sam. They were in his bed. Allison was saying to him, Can you believe they think I killed you?
She stretches, considers going for a jog but opts for coffee instead. She makes her own, with an antique percolator she bought a year ago that reminded her of the coffee in Tuscany. There was a time when she waited anxiously for the brew to be ready, when she was eager to move on with her day. These days, there is little to look forward to. She will drink her coffee, listen to classical music, go on the internet later. Sometimes she even reads the stuff aboutherself. Sometimes she will check out the website devoted to her case, freeallison.com , not for the supportâthey have no reason to think sheâs innocent, theyâre simply capitalizing on a media eventâbut out of idle curiosity. Much heavier on the idleness than the curiosity.
They had planned to go to Italy, Sam and Allison. A trip this spring, before heavy tourism, to less-traveled places like Poggi del Sasso and Gaiole in Chianti. She had already made plans for it, already booked romantic rooms in renovated castles with verandas where they could sit with wine and cheese and watch the sun go down over the breathtaking countryside.
âOh, God.â She wipes the moisture from her cheeks. âOh, shit. â The percolator has been whistling for too long. She pulls it off the stove, burning herself on the handle, spilling the entire thing onto the floor, the coffee that she had burned, anyway. She picks up the percolator and slams it against the refrigerator, breaking the lid off.
She lets out a loud moan, a deep sound she doesnât recognize, and covers her face with her hands. She is woozy but unwilling to correct the sensation, unwilling to open her eyes.
âThey think I killed you,â she says to him, and actually laughs, a release of nervous tension. âThey actually think I killed