almost caused an accident on the way to this store. Her eyes are heavy from sleep deprivation and worry. Her stomach is in knots, having been deprived of food for more than twenty-four hours.
âPlease donât tell me that things look grand,â she says. âThey have me all over Samâs house. They have that damn alibi. And they have me, the day before, barging into his office like some deranged maniacââ
She stops herself as Larryâs look softens.
âKind of like now,â she says. âIâm sorry.â
âItâs okay, itâs okay.â Larry has played the advocate in this relationship. Originally a biographer, now a reporter bent on showing that Allison did not kill Sam Dillon. But he has always been good about this. As much as he has tried to help Allisonâs defense, shown an unwavering beliefin her cause, fought his exasperation at her unwillingness to use his assistanceâalways, he has deferred to her, the woman on trial for her life.
âYouâve tried to help me, Larry. I know that. And I hope Iâve given you enough material back.â
âYouâve been great.â
âI donât know about great, butââ She runs her hands over her face. âThe book youâre writing, Larry? Please go easy on my family. Thatâs what I came here to ask.â
Larryâs smile is eclipsed, his expression hardening just like that. âYou want me to be quiet about what I know.â
âLarry, this book is going to sell no matter what. âBy Allison Pagone, as told to Larry Evans.â Youâll get a great print run. Just stick to the basics. You donât need the sensationalist stuff.â
âSo?â He opens his hands. âYou want me to back off what I know.â
âYou donât âknowâ anything, Larry.â
Larry Evans shifts in his chair, directs a finger at the table. âI know you didnât kill Sam Dillon,â he says.
âStop saying that. You donât know that.â
âThen I believe it. And I think youâre protecting someone.â
Allison looks around helplessly. She recognizes her lack of leverage.
âWhatâs happened?â he asks. âWhereâd the fighter go? Why are you giving up all of a sudden? Whatâs happened since the last time I talked to you, that now youâre acting so resigned to defeat?â
She looks into his eyes briefly. He is challenging her. But she will not tell him.
âPromise me youâll be fair to my family.â She recognizes that, from Larryâs perspective, she has no bargaining position here. She will not be able to enforce any promise. Allison gets to her feet, takes a moment to gain her equilibrium. She picks up the basket of vegetables, stares at them as if they are hazardous materials, and drops the basket.
âTell me what happened,â Larry pleads. âSomethingâs happened. I can tell. New evidence or something?â
âSomething,â she says to him. âLookâthanks for everything. For being there.â
Larry reaches for her hand. âAllison, tell me. Maybe I can help.â
âI canât tell you.â She withdraws her hand. âIâI canât.â
She goes home, the only place she is allowed to go. The dry cleanerâs is a permissible stop as well, but itâs closed on Sundays, and she has no cleaning there, anyway. She sits outside on her patio, looking over her garden, at the rusted play-set where Jessica used to swing and slide and climb with such energy and unmitigated delight, and remembers the vicarious enjoyment she derived from her daughterâs simplest acts.
She thinks of Sam Dillon. One evening in particular, mid-January of this year. Dinner, his idea, at a little Italian place, a real hole in the wall with the most perfect garlic bread sheâd ever tasted. A small room with ten tables, a red-checkered tablecloth, the