hoped he hadnât been tipped or gotten spooked. By the end of the night Yvette had seemed annoyed, and Stacy wondered if it was because of the boyfriendâs absence.
Itâd been interesting watching the girls work. The way they turned it on and off. When performing for a customer, it was as if no one existed but him. The minute they walked away, it was all about the next guy.
It seemed like such a lie.
Or was it? The guys knew, right? They couldnât really think these girls were all turned on? It was just one big, hot fantasy.
Was that what guys wanted? Stacy wondered. A big, hot fantasy? Was that what Spencer wanted?
What did he want? Theyâd moved in together almost by accident. Because of Katrina. Because sheâd needed a place to live and heâd had one.
And she had stayed. By a mutual, unspoken agreement. Itâd been two years and she would have to say their feelings for each other had neither progressed nor deteriorated.
Inert. Is that how she would describe their relationship? She hoped not because thinking of it that way made her feel uncomfortableâand a bit ridiculous, as well.
How else should she describe it? Theyâd moved in together âalmost by accident.â They had stayed together by an âunspoken agreement.â
He hadnât brought up marriage. He hadnât said he loved her.
And neither had she.
She stood in the bedroom doorway, watching him sleep. She had showered, washing away the stink of cigarettes and the layers of makeup, and changed into an oversize T-shirt. Was she waiting for Spencer to take the lead? she wondered. Did she want him to?
She wanted marriage, children. A normal life. Those longings had prompted her to try leaving police work behind, to try a fresh start in a brand-new city.
Instead, sheâd gotten pulled back into police workâand sheâd met Spencer. Become involved with himâand ended up in this almost-by-accident, unspoken-agreement relationship.
But how could she have a normal life when the future was so uncertain? Look at Sammy: wrong place, wrong time, and now Patti was a widow. Neither she nor Spencer were cut out to be anything but the cops they were. Was it fair to want children, to offer them such an uncertain future?
Stacy slipped into bed beside Spencer.
âHowâd it go?â he mumbled.
âOkay. Suspect never showed.â
He muttered something she couldnât make out.
She propped herself up on an elbow. âMalone, you ever pay for a lap dance?â
That woke him up. He rolled onto his side and looked at her. âExcuse me?â
âYou ever go to those places, like the Hustle?â
âHave I ever?â
He looked a bit like someone whoâd been awakened by an electrical shock.
âYes,â she said. âHave you ever? Just curious.â
âYeah, Iâve been in those places, hooted it up with the other guys. But paying some woman to grind herself against meâ¦Itâs just not my thing.â
âIs it the âpayingâ part? The âsome womanâ partâ¦orââ
He cocked an eyebrow. âOr what? The âa sexy woman all over meâ part? Give me a break, Stacy. Iâve got wood just talking about it.â
She smiled. âI think I can help with that.â
âThat so?â
âMmm.â She sat up, pulled off the T-shirt and tossed it on the floor. âIâm feeling generous tonight. Iâm thinking I might just give you one for free.â
9
Saturday, April 21, 2007
3:30 a.m.
Y vette sat curled up on the couch of her tiny French Quarter apartment. She had showered, washed her hair and scrubbed her face clean. She wore cotton pjâs and SpongeBob SquarePants slippers. Sheâd made herself a cup of hot chocolate, homemade with milk and Hersheyâs syrupânot that powdered crap. She knew she looked more the part of naive teenager than cynical stripper whoâd seen it