Reeseâs peanut butter cups to make me feel like Iâd never left.
âWell, I donât have a choice, and, honestly, Iâm lucky to have that. You shouldâve heard how hard-core this woman was on the phone,â I said. Mom looked at me, expressionless. âBut, whatever, I canât worry about it. I did just get a job at a really famous magazine with one of the most powerful women in the industry. A job a million girls would die for.â
We smiled at each other, but her smile was tinged with sadness. âIâm so happy for you,â she said. âSuch a beautiful, grown-up daughter I have. Honey, I just know this is going to be the start of a wonderful, wonderful time in your life. Ah, I remember graduating from college and moving to New York. All alone in that big, crazy city. Scary but so, so exciting. I want you to love every minute of it, all the plays and films and people and shopping and books. Itâs going to be the best time of your life â I just know it.â She rested her hand on mine, something she didnât usually do. âIâm so proud of you.â
âThanks, Mom. Does that mean youâre proud enough of me to buy me an apartment, furniture, and a whole new wardrobe?â
âYeah, right,â she said and smacked the top of my head with a magazine on her way to the microwave to heat two more cups. She hadnât said no, but she wasnât exactly grabbing her checkbook, either.
I spent the rest of the evening e-mailing everyone I knew, asking if anyone needed a roommate or knew of someone who did. I posted some messages online and called people I hadnât spoken to in months. No luck. I decided my only choice â without permanently moving onto Lilyâs couch and inevitably wrecking our friendship, or crashing at Alexâs, which neither of us was ready for â was to sublet a room short-term, until I could get my bearings in the city. It would be best to find my own room somewhere, and preferably one that was already furnished so I wouldnât have to deal with that, too.
The phone rang at a little after midnight, and I lunged for it, nearly falling off my twin-size childhood bed in the process. A framed, signed picture of Chris Evert, my childhood hero, smiled down from my wall, just below a bulletin board that still had magazine cutouts of Kirk Cameron plastered across it. I smiled into the phone.
âHey, champ, itâs Alex,â he said with that tone of voice that meant something had happened. It was impossible to tell if it was something good or bad. âI just got an e-mail that a girl, Claire McMillan, is looking for a roommate. Princeton girl. Iâve met her before, I think. Dating Andrew, totally normal. You interested?â
âSure, why not? Do you have her number?â
âNo, I only have her e-mail, but Iâll forward you her message and you can get in touch with her. I think sheâll be good.â
I e-mailed Claire while I finished talking to Alex and then finally got some sleep in my own bed. Maybe, just maybe, this would work out.
Claire McMillan: not so much. Her apartment was dark and depressing and in the middle of Hellâs Kitchen, and there was a junkie propped up on the doorstep when I arrived. The others werenât much better. There was a couple looking to rent out an extra room in their apartment who made indirect references to putting up with their constant and loud lovemaking; an artist in her early thirties with four cats and a fervent desire for more; a bedroom at the end of a long, dark hallway, with no windows or closets; a twenty-year-old gay guy in his self-proclaimed âslutty stage.â Each and every miserable room Iâd visited was going for well over $1,000 and my salary was cashing in at a whopping $32,500. And although math had never been my strong suit, it didnât take a genius to figure out that rent would eat up more than $12,000 of it