resistance. He sets me down. In the moonlight I can see how much effort it takes. How fast heâs breathing. âNot now,â he says. Itâs firm. Definitive. âYou should sleep.â
My body is vibrating, buzzing so loudly from the shock of his lack of contact. Blood pounds in my temples so strong that I canât even form a retort. I canât try to convince him.
And then he walks down the hallway and into the living room. I just stand there. Caught between the past and thisâwhatever this is. Him.
Chapter Seven
My body feels awake and alive before I even open my eyes. I pop out of bed and pull a canvas sarong over me. I go into the living room, then out onto the deck, but Noah is nowhere to be found.
I grab an apple from a basket and sit out in the sun. The apples are rosier than they have beenâmaybe Noah healed them yesterday. There are green beans there, too, and I take a handful, snapping off the ends and stuffing them into my mouth. They taste decadent. Like chocolate. I laugh out loud and then hear movement behind me.
I turn to find Noah, two spears in hand. A wide smile on his face.
âCome on,â he says. âItâs time you put yourself to use. Iâm going to teach you how to fish.â
âSeriously?â I say, but I know Iâm doing a terrible job of hiding my delight. Spending the whole day with him sounds like heaven.
Noah gives me a lopsided smile. âI think itâs time you chipped in. Iâm tired of doing all the heavy lifting. It has been a week, and you have not once killed what youâve eaten.â
I roll my eyes and dust myself off. âLet me just change,â I say.
I put on my shorts from the plane. Luckily my bra had nearly no damage, and I slip it on under a canvas top. No shoes, but my feet are adjusting to the rocks. The first few days they were tender and sore and bruised, but I think theyâre developing an extra skinâleathery, thick.
Iâm just about to meet him outside when I realize there are no mirrors here. I havenât seen my reflection in what feels like forever. Strangely, I donât miss it.
âReady,â I say as I round the corner.
Noahâs eyes trace up my legs, and I feel my whole body flush with the memory of last nightâhis arms. His breath on my neck. The low hum of his voice as he promised not to leave me. Then: how he said âNot now.â For the first time, I realize it wasnât a no.
I canât help but feel a little dizzy. And I know itâs not just the sun as we walk. Noah moves quickly, but this time I can keep up. He takes me back to the river we climbed to our first day here. The one I got sick at. Immediately he bends down and scoops up water, drinking deeply. I scream out.
âWhat?â he says, racing over toward me, water dripping off his chin. âWhat happened?â
âNoah,â I say. âWe canât drink from there. It almost killed me.â I check his face frantically. Already one foot ready to find Asku and get those herbs.
âOh,â Noah says. âThat.â But heâs biting his lip, a half smile on his face.
âWhat?â
âThat wasnât the water. That wasâ¦me.â
âYou?â I cross my arms over my chest.
âYou had a bad reaction to my healing powers .â He makes air quotes around the last two words. âApparently I did not do it entirely right. Iâm learning now.â He looks at me sideways.
âThanks for almost killing me,â I say, charging past him and into the stream.
â Saving you,â he corrects, following me.
The water is shallow, only coming up to my knees, and itâs crystal clear. I dangle my fingers in it, bring a cup up to my lips.
âI promise,â Noah says, seeing me hesitate. âThe water is fine.â
I drink and remember how it felt that first night, right before I got sickâdelicious, chilled