Losing You: a prequel to It's Not Over by Melissa M. Marlow Read Free Book Online Page A

anything to do with me after that, then I won’t hang out in the hallway anymore.”
    Karlie glared, “You are incorrigible.  What I saw in you baffles me.  I guess that will have to do, because she isn’t going to see you.”
    I got up and walked out.  I went far enough that I wouldn’t interfere with her going to class today, but I had to have one peek at her.  I noticed when she came out from the dorm.  My heart pounding harder than it ever has, my breathing uncontrollable, my feet moved me closer to her.  Wanting to run to her, pull her into my arms, and never let her go again seemed extreme, but I missed her so much.  She paused on the walkway scanning the area, making sure the coast was clear.  Close enough to see her delicate beauty worn with pain.  Her skin had paled, her eyes puffy, and yet her beauty radiated around her engulfing her in a heavenly glow.  Okay, so maybe it was the sun coming up behind her, but it wrapped her with its stream of lights.  Maybe if I groveled at her feet she would take my ring and be forever mine.
    I jumped a mile when a hand gripped my shoulder.
    “You promised, Paul.”  Kevin was standing next to me, holding me still while she escaped me.  Holding back until Kevin let go, but then again the experience didn’t seem to be enough and my feet moved once his hand let go.
    Another grip, this one more firm than the last, stopped me, “No.  You said you would let her go to class.”
    I nodded and observed her walk into the building.
     
    It’s time to change tactics.  I got flowers every day, and placed them by her door while she went for dinner.  I tried to contact her every day with a text, but I kept it simple.  Like : “Jess, please talk to me,” “I need five minutes,” “I miss you,” “look great, ” but the one that stopped her wa s “will you marry me.”
    Another tactic, I left notes on the door in the morning and would wait outside in case she decided to talk to me.  I tried to go to class too, but found myself searching for a glimpse of her as I walked from room to room.  I quit all tutoring, because all I wanted to do is win her back.  The days go by so quickly that today happens to be her birthday.
    My gift to her needs to be extreme.  I called Karlie and made arrangements to deliver flowers to her room.  Why she agreed I am unsure, but I’m thankful none the less. 
    A time from our past, Jess’s 18 th birthday, came to mind.  She had been so angry with me about not spending more time with her.  Yeah, I blew that to shit.  That day I had bought her flowers to represent our past, present, and future.  It took me a while to get them all in her room.  Karlie watched as a placed the bouquets of carnations on one have of the room.  The biggest bouquet I placed a card with my word - The carnations a symbol of how many days I have loved you .   On the other side of the room I filled with red and white tulips.  This card said - The tulips a symbol of how many days I will love you .   Ended the gross display of flowers with three bouquets of roses; putting the final card in the middle.  Standing there a moment remembering everything about her as he placed the final card that read - The roses a symbol of everything I love about you.
    With hope that she’d remember their love and forgive him enough to at least have a conversation with him.  He’d win her back if she found it in her heart to open back up to him. 
    Karlie supervised my every move, but her face indicated that this weakened her defenses.  I moved to the door, my heart ached with leaving.  One last glance at Karlie showed her that I didn’t do this to start trouble I only wanted a moment of Jess’s time.
    She stood there wrapped in her own arms, “You are in love with her?”
    Nodding as I stared into her eyes pleading for help.  I had to ask, “Is she coming around at all?”
    The pains in my heart reflected on Karlie’s face as she shook her head no.  Leaving