Lost In Our Darkness (Demons Of Darkness Book 2) by Elizabeth Hayes Read Free Book Online Page A

stepping into the hot stream of water. If only the water would wash away more than just my tears. I wished it would wash away Nix so that I didn’t keep doing this to myself. He was a married man and I was nothing but his baby’s momma. I wasn’t his anymore. I wasn’t his wife or his old lady. I was nothing. I let the water wash over me until my body stung from the hot water and I felt as if I was about to pass out. I turned the water off and wrapped myself up in a towel and crawled into bed. I just wanted to not feel. I opened the bedside drawer and pulled out the baggie of coke I had gotten from Nix a few nights ago and cut a fat line. I snorted it hoping to numb myself. Ten minutes later I wasn’t numb. I still felt him as if he was draped around me.
    I couldn’t do this to myself—lie here and think of him. I dressed in a flannel and a pair of yoga pants. I needed that bottle of whiskey. I cut another line before heading out into the main room. Nitro was at the bar with Red. I walked over to them and sat down next to Nitro.
    “Everything okay baby girl?” he asked as I leaned into him.
    "I'm fine, just need a drink." He lifted his hand and motioned for the prospect who was tending the bar. "What ya drinking?"
         "Whiskey but I should probably stick to beer." The prospect handed me a beer and cracked the top for me. I took a sip. "Where’s my son?"
         "Asleep, Cheyenne is with him."
         "So what is this thing between you two?" I asked before I took a drink.
         "Just having some fun."
         "Yeah okay." I took another drink.
         "What's up with you and Payne?"
         "Just having some fun." I threw his answer right back at him. He laughed and took a drink from his glass of amber liquid.
         "Alright well as much fun as this has been I'm going to go watch some TV." I slid off the barstool and found a spot on an empty couch and picked up the television remote and started flipping through the channels. Payne sank down next to me. "Want some company?"
         "Sure." I continued to flip through the channels until the news caught my attention.
    I turned up the volume.
         "A house fire claimed the lives of six adults this evening. Investigators are still looking for what caused the fire. Authorities say the victims are thirty-six-year-old  Jaden Wilson, his wife thirty-one-year-old Tamara Wilson, twenty-eight-year-old Deon White, twenty-nine-year-old Jamal Harris, thirty-two-year-old Kevin Smith, and thirty-nine-year-old Terrell Jones. All victims were known members or associates of Three Point Kings, a known gang in the area. It is unknown if this was an accident or if this was, in fact, gang related. Jaden and Tamara have four children together who were with family at the time of the accident."
    She kept talking but I tuned out. Their faces stared back at me on the screen. Payne took the remote from my hand and changed the channel.
         "You okay."
         I nodded as he pulled me into him. He left the television on sports highlights as I spaced off. They had kids. I took parents away from innocent children. I did that. I grabbed the glass out of Payne’s hand and downed it. "Need a drink?" Again I nodded.
    He got up to get me a drink. I pulled my legs up and curled into a fetal position. When Payne got back he sank back down on the couch next to me. I uncurled myself and took the drink from his hand. I took a long drink of the rum and leaned against him.
     
     

         "It hurts," she cried as I tried to keep her comfortable. "Get her out, Nix, please."
         "We're almost there. Hold on Zoe."
         "I can't Nix."
    We pulled up to the hospital I looked over at Zoelle who was pale under the lights outside the entrance.
         “Zoelle.” I reached for her as her eyes closed. I held her to me and carried her through the emergency room door. I was met by a nurse with a wheelchair, thanks to Red who had called ahead. 
         “Sir, we