Lost In Rewind (Audio Fools #3) by Tali Alexander Read Free Book Online Page A

imagine a baby with your eyes or my nose? Promise me I can give the baby a name,” she begs with hope and excitement dripping from her voice.
    “Sara, of course you can name our child. It will be our family ,” I respond honestly, mimicking her optimism.
    Instead of one baby, we got two—Juliet and Jacob. Sara was my gift in life; she made everything better, while I made everything worse. What kind of life would I have had without knowing her? She was and is a part of everything I am today. Jacqueline and I had a real family, thanks to Sara. It’s funny how we assumed our kids would provide our shaky past a stable future. But that’s not what fate had intended for us. That stupid fortuneteller got it all wrong.
    Emily talks to me while I reluctantly come back from a memory of when I had it all. I’m back to reality, back to my doomed fate that doesn’t include Jacqueline or Sara.
    “You saved her life, you know? She could’ve died if she was alone. Thank you for saving my best friend,” she mumbles with tears running down her pale cheeks.
    “Emily, I can never repay her for everything she’s been in my life. I have hurt her for so long that I will be saving her life for the rest of mine.” I’ve cried more in the last week than in my entire existence combined. Just allowing my head to imagine a world without Sara stops me from taking another breath. My kids and I lost Jacky; we can’t lose Sara, too. That’s not an option. Whether she’s part of our life or not, she needs to be a part of this world. I need to know that she’s somewhere, existing, healthy, happy, and being loved.
    “Jeff, I know you love her, but I hope once she gets better you’ll allow her to experience happiness without you.” Emily’s words come out in a plea. “I didn’t know how deep your relationship was, and I wasn’t a good friend to her. I didn’t give her good advice, but now that I know the truth, I beg of you to let her be. She loves him and he loves her and I just want her to have what she’s always dreamed about.”
    “I know we’ll never be together again, but tell me, how am I suppose to go on? I don’t know anything but her. She was supposed to be my future. How can I raise our kids on my own? She loves them so much. What if I can’t be a good father?” The questions I should be asking Sara shoot out of my mouth without any thought or filter. Emily doesn’t have the answers. No one can help me but me.
    “The doctor will be in to talk to you since they think you’re her husband.”
    I nod, close my eyes, and promise that I’ll be whoever I need to be for her.
    The edge of my bed dips as Emily takes a seat. I open my eyes as I feel her take my right hand in hers and turn it to expose my open palm. She traces the lines inside my palm before lifting her gaze to mine.
    “My nana once told me that our life is mapped out and etched in history before we come out of the womb. That no matter what road we take and regardless of the mistakes we make along the way, our destiny will always find us. In the end, all our choices bring us to our providence. I believe that fate brought you and my best friend together. Nothing and no one could’ve changed that. Your children are a testimony of that. But souls heal one another, not break each other. One day, you’ll find all the pieces of your heart that perhaps you haven’t earned yet, and when you do, you’ll understand all the choices that brought you to your bashert.” She looks back down at my open, outstretched hand before I make a fist and close it.
    Emily stands up without another word and leaves me alone to remember a mocking memory that for years I’ve tried but failed to forget.
    “Sit, boy. I will give you a reading,” the older woman at the top of the stairs had whispered with certainty. I was never the same after I’d spoken and looked into the old fortuneteller’s eyes. I can’t explain what had compelled me to accept her invitation. I can’t decide