Love Lost (Love's Improbable Possibility) by Love Belvin Read Free Book Online Page B

myself. A small voice told me to turn back around and leave but I just had to see what was up with this dude.
    I knocked on the door but with no answer. I waited a few seconds before knocking again. The television was so loud that I didn’t think my knock could be heard over it, so I decided to open the door and peek in. I reminded myself how the chick at the door told me he was here. After turning the knob, as I slowly opened the door, I saw a woman on the bed naked with her legs opened. Under any circumstances, I would have shut the door in embarrassment but Tyquan was supposedly in this room. I continued to open the door quietly when I realized old girl didn’t even notice me. Sure enough she was getting cunnilingus by, whom I shortly realized was, Tyquan. That’s when I opened the door all the way to announce my presence. My knees gave out on me when I saw that behind Tyquan was a man giving it to him from the back. My last meal suddenly fell all over the floor when bile shot up from my belly.
    “What the fuck…!” the chick yelled.
    “I thought the damn door was locked ,” is what the alpha-male shouted.
    Tyquan was frozen with no words until I gathered myself and began out of the house. I maintained a rapid stride down the hallway and busted a right to the door. By the time I hit the corner , Tyquan was running and calling after me.
    “Rayna, wait up! Wait up, girl!” he screamed.
    I turned to see him running with a towel hiding his penis. I played Jackie Joyner and jetted out that bitch like my life depended on it. I missed several steps, jumped off the porch, and hauled ass in my car. By the time I’d turned the key in the ignition, he was at my car banging on the glass.
    “Wa it, baby girl. Let me talk to you! I’m sorry you had to see that in there!” he shouted frantically.
    “Get the fuck away from my car or I will run your freak of an ass over!” I yelled forcefully from my trembling body.
    “Wait, Rayna!” he said before I slammed on the accelerator. He jumped back before his toes were crushed. 
    A few days later , I decided to take his call to end the chapter of my life that had to do with Tyquan. I picked up the phone in my dorm.
    He said, “What’s up ?” at a loss of words.
    I simply said, “ When I hadn’t heard from you in a few weeks I figured I’d come check you out. I thought maybe you had been under the weather?” My tone was overtly sarcastic.
    “Naw. Just been a little busy. I got myself in some mess. ” I could tell he was confused by my composure. He probably feared me hanging up. But I was calm when I said, “Well, I guess this means goodbye. It’s been real.”
    “Wait, Rayna. I just wanted to tell you how sorry I am for what you saw. I know you have a lot of questions and wondering if…if…if…if —” he tried until I interrupted with “You’re gay?”
    “I mean…yeah. I ain’t no homo. We was just playing around with that girl. I ‘on’t mess around like that there ,” Tyquan tried.
    “Listen, while you sit here on the phone with me trying to convince yourself that you are not what is defined as G-A-Y , let me tell you that I’m not beat for it. You put my life and health at risk. As we speak, I am awaiting the results of my HIV test. My life is hanging in the balance all because you like “playing” around with your friends by having a pussy in your face and a cock up your ass at the same time. Let me be clear when I say don’t you ever call or look for me ever again in your life. If I ever see you again, not only will I scream out loud that you are a gay freak but I will look for the nearest weapon-like object and bust you in your fucking head. And if you don’t fucking believe me just try me,” My tone, dissonantly cool and collected.
    I could tell he wanted to say more but thought it wouldn’t be wise. We ended the conver sation there. I waited until that following Monday to call the phone company to have my cell number changed. That day I