Love Me ~ Without Regret by Renee Kennedy Read Free Book Online

every now and then without him.  We are back at The Lonely Heart because Aubs wanted to see Ryder again.  This time, I’m in my Daisy Dukes and boots, even though it’s colder than a witch’s tit outside. My makeup is my everyday subdued.  I have different club attire for different purposes.  Last night I had on my biker bar, spank my ass clothes. Tonight is my sweet, but naughty country girl get up because I intend to get to know Kane. Maybe. I mean he’s cute and fun to flirt with, but I don’t know.
    I know Bailey and everyone else is going to be pissed that I’ll be hitting on Kane, but Clay has to see me for who I am.  I’m not some fairy tale princess that is waiting for her prince.  He has to see why love isn’t an option for me. I’m not capable of that shit. 
    We get a table tonight since we have Mr. Party Pooper with us.  I’m going to get Bailey out on that dance floor if it kills me. The three of us together have this girl on girl dance that drives men wild.  I’ve taken guys home simply because they’ve seen me dancing.  Most of the time, they want to come home with all of us and have a foursome, but we haven’t done any foursomes.  Now a threesome is a different story, but there’s never any girl on girl action as they have hoped. Even the threesome business is in my past, though. I’m just not into that anymore. I got all the wild stuff out of my system while we were in Tuscaloosa. Contrary to popular belief, I’m not buck-ass-wild, well, not anymore.
    We are at the bar early so we can hang out with the band members before they go on stage.  I’m going to be full on flirtatious with Kane to get Clay’s crazy notions of a relationship between us out of his head.
    “Bailey, get your ass up and get on the dance floor.  You’re engaged not dead. Besides, Cash is right here.  You guys won’t be but a few feet apart.  I think he can survive without your tongue stuck down his throat for one song!”  She looks all dreamy eyed at Cash and they start kissing like I just reminded them what they should be doing.  I know any more attempts are futile.  Seriously.  Aubs has found Ryder and they're going at each other like dogs in heat.  I need to find someone to dry hump, too.  When Aubs lets Ryder come up for air, I’ll ask where Kane is. 
    “Hey, pretty girl.” 
    I feel him whisper in my ear, and my cooch starts to tingle. How am I going to show him I can’t be with him when the mere murmur from him kicks my libido into overdrive? He sends crazy little shivers to my core, which makes me want to jump on his hips and play ride’em, cowboy.  I turn on my severely sarcastic attitude. Snarkiness is always a turn off for guys.
    “Hey, Clay, is Kane around?  I need a pick me up, and he’s the man for the job.” I shift my lips to the side and give him a catty look.
    His face tightens into a grimace.
    “Everyone is dry humping so I need a partner, too. At least someone to dance with.”
    He grabs my hand and leads me to the dance floor. 
    A slow dance song is on. I can’t be this close to him. My stomach flutters. Not good. With his hand around my waist, I’m finding it difficult to breathe.
    “You don’t need Kane, Lizzie.  Kane only looks out for Kane. He only wants a good time.” 
    Clay is wrong. That is exactly what I desire. I’m in desperate need of a good time.
    “I’ve been trying to tell you, Clay, guys like that don’t bother me at all.  I’m only available for mutually pleasurable associations.”  He looks like he just died on the inside.  Better he sees all of this now so he can find someone else to move on to. It’s the right thing to do. It’s the right thing to do. The. Right. Thing.
    “If that is what you truly want, Lizzie, go ahead and get all the fuck ‘em and leave ‘em out of your system.  I personally think you’re capable of more than that.  Do me one favor, though. Leave my friends out of the mix.  I think you will regret being