him if something happens to him, and if a Herald ends up hurt or illâHavens, most of them end up deadâthere are always places for them here, at the Palace. But a Bard has only himself to rely on. If he loses his voice, or the use of his hands....
The harsh reality was that Stefen had come from the streets, and if something happened to him, the streets were likely where heâd end. Unless he built himself some kind of secure future.
Otherwiseâ
No. He got up, and stared for a moment out his window, at the Palace, the heart of all his hopes. No. Iâll do it. Iâll make my own luck. I swear I wonât go back to that. I wonât end up like Berte.
He gazed at the Palace for a moment more, then picked up the case holding his good gittern, squared his shoulders, and headed for the door.
So now âValdemarâ needs me, after all. That should work. I serve Valdemar, and we both get what we need. He nodded to himself, and closed the door behind him. Fair enough.
Three
âAre you going to be all right?â Vanyel asked in an undertone. Then he thought savagely in the next instant, Of course he isnât going to be all right, you fool. The King was as pale as paper, thin to transparency, with pain-lines permanently etched about his mouth and eyes. Under any other circumstances, Vanyel would have ordered him back to his bed; beads of sweat stood out all over his forehead with the effort of walking as far as the Audience Chamber, and Vanyel didnât have to exert his Empathy to know how much pain his joints were causing him. Vanyel would have traded away years of his life to give the King a few momentsâ respite from that agony. But he allowed none of this to show as he settled the colorless wraith that was King Randale into the heavily-padded shelter of his throne.
âIâll be fine,â Randale replied, managing a strained smile. âReally, Van, you worry too much.â But he couldnât restrain a gasp of pain as he slipped a little and hit his arm against the side of the throne.
Vanyel cursed his own clumsiness, and did his best not to clutch at Randaleâs fragile arms, as he caught Randale before he could fall and lowered the King carefully the rest of the way down into his seat. Another bruise the size of my hand, and he doesnât need ten more where my fingers were.
âReally, Van,â Randale repeated with patently false cheer, once heâd been settled as comfortably as possible. âYou worry too much.â Vanyel stepped back a pace, ready to aid in any way he could, but sensing the Kingâs irritability at his own weakness and helplessness. He also doesnât need to be reminded of how little he can do anymore.
The slight noise of the chamberâs side door opening and shutting caught Randaleâs attention. He craned his head around a little to see who it was, as young Stefen entered the Audience Chamber, put down a stool, and began setting up near the throne.
âIs that a new Bard?â he asked with more real interest than heâd shown in anything all day. âI donât remember seeing that youngster in Court, and Iâd surely remember that head of hair! He looks like a forest fire at sunset.â
:Should I tell him, âFandes?:
:No,: came the immediate reply. :It would be cruel to raise his hopes. Stefen is either going to be able to help him, or not. And if not, better that the King simply enjoy the music, as best he can.:
Vanyel sighed. Yfandes could be coldly pragmatic at the oddest times. âBreda sent him over,â Van temporized. âShe says heâs very good, and you can probably use him with this particular lot of hardheads.â
âGifted, hmm?â Randale looked genuinely interested.
âQuite remarkably, according to Breda.â Vanyel coughed. âI gather she caught something in the wind about the Lake District lot, and sent him over specially. I understand