ill.
Heâd known about this trick of his, this knack of âsinging pain awayâ for a long timeâheâd had it forced on him, for all practical purposes, by the old woman who had cared for him for as long as he could remember. It was either sing her pain away, or put up with her uncertain temper and trust he could get out of her reach when she was suffering a âmorning after.â
Old Berte wasnât his motherâbut he couldnât remember anyone who might have been his mother. There had only been Berte. Those memories were vivid, and edged with a constant hunger that was physical and emotional. Berte teaching him to beg before he could even walk. Berte making false sores of flour-paste and cowâs blood, so that he looked ill. Berte binding up one of his legs so that he had to hobble with the help of a crutch.
The hours of sitting beside her on a street corner, learning to cry on cue.
Then the day when one of the other beggars brought out a tin whistle, and Stef had begun to sing along, in a thin, clear sopranoâand when heâd finished, there was a crowd about the three of them, a crowd that tossed more coppers into Berteâs cracked wooden bowl than heâd ever seen in his short life.
I looked up, and I saw the expression on her face, and I knew Iâd never have to limp around on a crutch again.
He closed his eyes, and let his fingers walk into the next set of exercises. Berte bought us both a real supper of cooked food from a food stall at the market. Fresh food, not stale, not crumbs and leavingsâand we shared a pallet and a blanket that she bought from a ragman that night. That was the best day of my life.
It remained the best day of his life for a long while, for once she had a steady source of income, Berte returned to the pleasures that had made her a beggar in the first place. Liquor, and the drug called âdreamerie.â
She drank and drugged away every copper we made. At least I didnât have to spend half of every night trying to run the cramps out of my legs, he thought, forcing the muscles in his shoulders to relax while he continued to play. Things were a little better. I could take care of her hangoversâenough so that we could get out every morning. I was hungry, but I wasnât quite as hungry as when weâd just been begging for a living. The worse she got, the easier it was to hide a coin or two, and once she was gone into her dreams, I could sneak out and buy something to eat. But I kept wondering when she was going to run afoul of whoever it was that sold her the drugsâhow long it would be before the craving got too much and she sold me the way sheâd sold her own children. An involuntary shudder made both his hands tremble on the strings. I was sure that was what had happened when Lynnell grabbed me that night.
It had been late; Berte had just sunk into snoring oblivion, and Stef had eased out between the loose boards at the back of their tenement room, a couple of coppers clutched in his fist. He had intended to head straight for Inn Row where he knew he could buy a bowl of soup and all the bread he could eat for those two coppersâbut someone had been waiting for him. A woman, tall, and sweet-smelling, dressed all in scarlet.
Sheâd grabbed his arm as he rounded the corner, and there had been two uniformed Guardsmen with her. Terror had branded her words into his memory.
âCome with me, boy. You belong to Valdemar now.â
He hadnât the faintest idea what sheâd meant. He hadnât known that âValdemarâ was the name of the kingdom where he lived. He hadnât even known he lived in a Kingdom! All heâd ever known was the town; heâd never even been outside its walls. Heâd thought this âValdemarâ was a person, and that Berte had either sold him or traded him away.
I was in terrorâtoo frightened to object, too petrified to even talk. I kept