you in every way, to be able to touch you whenever I want to. I won’t make sure that no one is around before I kiss you.”
“And?” Jim asked.
“Jim!” Donovan exclaimed. “You’ve been living in the closet your entire life. Are you truly willing to come out just because we’ve met?”
“Donovan, who are you trying to convince? Me or yourself?” Jim asked. His ironic tone concealed the overwhelming emotions he felt.
Jim watched Donovan start to say something, then close his mouth. He opened it again, but no sound came out. Finally, Donovan stared at Jim, looking baffled. “I don’t know.”
Just as puzzled, and a little more than nervous, Jim stepped forward to stand between Donovan’s spread legs, his hands settling on Donovan’s shoulders as he looked down at him.
“What don’t you know, Donovan,” Jim whispered.
“What if you change your mind, Jim? What if you decide I’m not worth it?” Donovan said, sounding very nervous. “You already see me being a man clumped together with me as a person. How do I know you won’t decide at some point to cut your losses and run?”
“I think the same could be said about you. You could decide being gay isn’t something you want either. I, at least, have always known that I was gay, even if I never did anything about it. Until you met me, I imagine the thought never crossed your mind.”
Jim’s eyebrow nearly shot past his forehead when Donovan’s face turned red and the man looked away. “Donovan?”
“It’s true that I’ve never been with a man, but that doesn’t mean I haven’t thought about it. I don’t know if that makes me gay or what,” Donovan mumbled.
“Okay, let’s take sex out of the equation. If we—” Jim started.
“Are you out of your fucking mind?” Donovan exclaimed. His hands came up to clutch at Jim’s waist as if he were afraid to let Jim go. “If you didn’t want us to have sex, why did you give me the bottle of lube?”
“No, no! I mean let’s take the whole gay-not-gay thing out of it,” Jim said quickly. He chuckled. “I think it’s safe to say we’re both attracted to each other and neither of us have an ounce of experience with other men.”
“Okay…” Donovan’s eyes narrowed. “And that means what? That neither of us knows what in the hell we’re doing? I think we already know that.”
Jim laughed. “Okay, yeah, there is that. It also means we’re on equal footing here. I’ve never done this before, and neither have you. And I’m not talking about just the sex thing either. Neither one of us has ever had a serious relationship, a mate, or anyone we considered committing to.”
“Where are you going with all of this, Jim?”
“Are you willing to take a chance on me? Knowing that I’m afraid to come out of the closet, but I’m willing to try? Knowing that I’ve never been with a man? Knowing that I’d really prefer that you moved here and lived with me? That I don’t want to leave Wolf Creek? Are you willing to put that all aside and be my mate?” Jim asked as fear and dread knotted inside of him. Donovan’s answer had the power to make or break him.
“Yes,” Donovan answered without hesitation.
“Then hand me the damn lube!”
Chapter 4
Donovan’s hand shook as he handed Jim the bottle of lube. He couldn’t believe he was actually doing this. He was actually going to commit to Jim, another man. His mate. He chewed on his lower lip and stole a look at Jim.
His heart started beating faster when he saw the look of uncertainty on Jim’s face. Not because it made him nervous, but because it told him that Jim was as scared as he was. Somehow, it made Donovan feel more confident.
“Why don’t we start off with something small?” he asked as he gave Jim a small smile.
“Like what?”
“You could kiss me,” Donovan replied. His whole being seemed to be filled with waiting as he watched for Jim’s reaction. His heart began to beat faster as a slow sensuous grin