It was easy enough, while I waited for my coffee, to speculate about the likely reasons. There was, for example, the rheumatism . . . though I couldnât quite picture Tony in the character of a bedside companion. It was even remotely possible that they felt some shame and were unwilling to be confronted by their victim. As for the victim, I wondered sadly what painful revelation the night would certainly have brought. I blamed myself more than ever for not speaking in time. Surely she would have learned the truth more gently from me than from some tipsy uncontrolled outburst of her husband. All the same â such egoists are we in our passions â I was glad to be there in attendance . . . to staunch the tears . . . to take her tenderly in my arms, comfort her . . . oh, I had quite a romantic day-dream on the terrace before she came down the steps and I saw that she had never had less need of a comforter.
She was just as I had seen her the first night: shy, excited, gay, with a long and happy future established in her eyes. âWilliam,â she said, âcan I sit at your table? Do you mind?â
âOf course not.â
âYouâve been so patient with me all the time I was in the doldrums. Iâve talked an awful lot of nonsense to you. I know you told me it was nonsense, but I didnât believe you and you were right all the time.â
I couldnât have interrupted her even if I had tried. She was a Venus at the prow sailing through sparkling seas. She said, âEverythingâs all right. Everything. Last night â he loves me, William. He really does. Heâs not a bit disappointed with me. He was just tired and strained, thatâs all. He needed a day off alone â détendu .â She was even picking up Tonyâs French expressions second-hand. âIâm afraid of nothing now, nothing at all. Isnât it strange how black life seemed only two days ago? I really believe if it hadnât been for you Iâd have thrown in my hand. How lucky I was to meet you and the others too. Theyâre such wonderful friends for Peter. We are all going home next week â and weâve made a lovely plot together. Tonyâs going to come down almost immediately we get back and decorate our house. Yesterday, driving in the country, they had a wonderful discussion about it. You wonât know our house when you see it â oh, I forgot, you never have seen it, have you? You must come down when itâs all finished â with Stephen.â
âIsnât Stephen going to help?â I just managed to slip in.
âOh, heâs too busy at the moment, Tony says, with Mrs Clarenty. Do you like riding? Tony does. He adores horses, but he has so little chance in London. It will be wonderful for Peter â to have someone like that because, after all, I canât be riding with Peter all day long, there will be a lot of things to do in the house, especially now, when Iâm not accustomed. Itâs wonderful to think that Peter wonât have to be lonely. He says there are going to be Etruscan murals in the bathroom â whatever Etruscan means; the drawing-room basically will be eggshell green and the dining-room walls Pompeian red. They really did an awful lot of work yesterday afternoon â I mean in their heads, while we were glooming around. I said to Peter, âAs things are going now weâd better be prepared for a nursery,â but Peter said Tony was content to leave all that side to me. Then there are the stables: they were an old coach-house once, and Tony feels we could restore a lot of the ancient character and thereâs a lamp he bought in St Paul which will just fit . . . itâs endless the things there are to be done â a good six monthsâ work, so Tony says, but luckily he can leave Mrs Clarenty to Stephen and concentrate on us. Peter asked him about the garden, but