having shot off my mouth. Not the real reason, maybe, but while we were on the subjectâ¦. âYou should probably know something else. If Zach starts talking about the bad man and the policeman who shot himâwell, that really happened. Maybe someone filled you in on that?â
They hadnât. Useless bunch of busybodies. Why hadnât they told her the stuff that mattered, so I wouldnât have to? I didnât like thinking about that night. The strobing red of the cop car lights, the hard white light inside the store, where a crazy bastard had held Gwen and my son at gunpointâ¦the fear, raw and jagged like a gutful of broken glass.
Iâd failed them. No matter how often I told myself there was nothing I could have done to protect them, the bitterness of my failure didnât go away.
But Seely would need to know the basics, so I told her about the holdup of a convenience store last April, and how Gwen and Zach had been among the hostages taken by a not-too-bright gunman. And how Duncan had saved them.
âMy God, Ben. You said something about Zach having had a lot of uncertainty in his life, but I never imagined anything like this.â
âHe seems to be doing okay. Gwen took him to this guy who does play therapy. Thatâs where kids tell their stories with toys,â I explained, âand the therapist sort of plays with them, only in a way that helps them work through things.â
âWhat about you?â
âI wasnât part of it.â
âThatâs what I mean. Thereâs nothing worse than being helpless when someone you love is hurting or in danger.â
Uncomfortable, I said, âI donât usually blather on so much. I just thought you ought to know.â
She chuckled. âYou call that blathering? I donât think anything you said even qualifies as a secret. And I do know a few. Itâs amazing what people will say to a paramedic. I suppose doctors and nurses experience that, too.â
Was that why I felt like there was something between usâbecause sheâd saved my life? Turning the idea over in my mind, I decided it made sense.
She stood. âSeems to me you could use some play therapy yourself, but for now weâll settle for getting you dressed. Câmon, up with you. Iâll take that sling off.â
The moment I stood, the room shrank. Seely was standing very close, and the soft herbal scent of her hair seemed stronger. I pretended I didnât notice. âI can get this strap in front.â
âOkay. Turn a bitâ¦there.â The sling came loose, and she slipped it off. âOf course, I donât know half the secrets Daisy does. If you ever met her, youâd find yourself telling her your life story in no time. People do.â
My shoulder ached more without the slingâs support, so I supported that arm with my other hand. âWhoâs Daisy? A friend?â
âThat, yes. Also my mother.â
âYou call your mother by her first name?â
âSure. Can you get those buttons, or do you need some help?â
I thought about letting her unbutton my pajama shirt. Her knuckles would brush against my skinâ¦better to let my right arm dangle and fumble the buttons out left-handed. âI can do it. You did say your mother was unusual.â
She chuckled again. A man could get hooked on that sound. âUnusual, yes. She used to be a flower child. The real thing, Haight-Ashbury and all that. In some ways she still is, though sheâs doing pretty well as an artist these days. I tease her that sheâs lost in the sixties. Here, weâll do the difficult arm first.â
She eased the pajama shirt off my shoulder. It fit snugly over the bandages, so she had to take her time. It was ridiculous to get turned on by that, under the circumstances. But itwas a good thing the sweatpants were baggy. âAn artist, huh? What kind?â
âSculpture. Sheâs into what