away, still dripping, and flings her wet self into her fatherâs arms.
I stand there, bewildered and blinking. âMeaning?
Thereâs no meaning. Weâre washing for supper.â He looks at my sodden shirtwaist, all the while stroking Helenâs heaving back. âAre clean hands worth so many tears from an afflicted child?â His voice carries genuine distress. For a moment I wonder if the captain himself isnât about to cry.
My insides curdle. I donât know what to say.
Without a word he picks Helen up. She wraps her legs round his waist and buries her face into his shoulder. With a snap that makes me jump, Captain Keller yanks a hand towel from the dresser top.
âWeâve seen enough tears in this house,â he mutters. In the doorway he turns, mopping Helenâs face, and says, slowly and deliberately, âSupper is
served,
Miss Sullivan.â
Rooted to the spot, I watch him go. The soap goes slimy in my hand. Here I thought theyâd be pleased, and Captain Keller acts as though Iâve done nothing but rub salt in their wounds. My lips tremble. I donât know if itâs because of the captainâs harsh words or the sorrowful look in his eyes. Below me I can hear the scrape of the dining-room chairs on the floor as the Kellers nudge themselves up to the table. Then, an awkward silence.
Theyâre waiting for me. I donât know if I can face them, red eyed and dripping, a failure once again. Iâd much rather shrink into the rocker with Helenâs doll. But if I want to keep my position, I have no choice.
Helenâs beaten me again.
With a heavy sigh I press my eyes into the cool elbow of my damp sleeve, then head down the stairs.
Chapter 10
Her untaught, unsatisfied hands destroy whatever they touch.
âANNE SULLIVAN TO SOPHIA HOPKINS, MARCH 1887
The next day I rise early, determined to make some headway. Washing for supper may not have been enough to please them, but Iâll dare the Kellers not to be impressed when they wake to find Helen dressed, combed, and washed.
First I dress myself and creep down to the kitchen. Viny is already preparing breakfast in the half-light. âI need cake,â I tell her, âand plenty of it.â
She gives me a dubious look. âYou gonna spoil that childâs appetite,â she chides.
I fix her with a hard stare. âThe last thing I intend to do is spoil that little bully,â I inform her. âAnd as for her appetite, Helenâs more likely to whistle âDixieâ than refuse a bite to eat.â
Viny laughs to herself and shakes her head. âYou sure right about that, Miss Annie,â she says, heading for the platter. Her laughter makes me strangely confident. I smile as she hands over a generous plateful. âIâll bake another this afternoon.â She winks. âYou keep Missy Helen from cryinâ, and Capân wonât give you a bit a trouble.â
I cock my head and squint to make out her expression.
âI hear what I hear, is all,â she replies, turning to her biscuit dough. âYou really got her washed up yesterday?â
âI did.â
âHumph,â she grunts, âainât that somethinâ!â
I canât keep from grinning as I hurry back to my room. Helen is still asleep, so I set the cake on the floor between the dresser and her bed, then lay everything I need within reach. Dress and pinafore; stockings, high buttoned boots, and buttonhook; soap, brush, and towel. If I can wake her gently, Iâm certain this will work. Perhaps by the end of the day Iâll have won over more than Viny.
Kneeling beside her bed, I run my fingers over her hair. Itâs in dire need of a brushing but surprisingly soft. Delicate brown tendrils curl round her face. I could wind them into ringlets like the dollâs, if sheâd let me. The thought makes me smile. I lean in to kiss her cheek, and she stirs. One of my
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