That desire struck her as oddly intimate, rippling over her skin like a caress.
âMaking an offer for me does not grant you the right to dictate to me, sir.â
He uncrossed his arms and she shivered, her memory filling with how it felt to be pressed against him. A flicker of excitement returned to her so quickly she chewed on her lower lip, needing some outlet for all the churning sensations trapped within her.
âNo, lass, pulling ye off the ground before ye were raped does.â His voice cut through the air like a hot knife. There was nothing friendly in his expression, only harsh judgment.
âI asked yer brother for the right to court ye only, I never offered for ye and Iâm thinking that a wise thing at the moment. I do nae need a wife that has nae got the sense of a child.â
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His rejection stung.
Jemma felt it traveling through her like a lash from a whip. Sheâd only felt leather bite into her flesh once and for the very same reason. Lack of attention to what was happening around her.
She had been a mere ten years old and walked into a section of the training yard she had no place being. A thick, braided leather whip sliced down across her back before the men noticed that their space had been invaded. It had been her mistake to go there, and her father had made that clear with a lecture witnessed by every man training in that yard. It had been her sireâs place to reprimand her. It was a lesson she had never forgotten until her father died.
That made Gordon Dwyreâs judgment sting even more. She was not perfect, but that did not mean she needed another man attempting to act as her parent.
âWell then, it seems we are in agreement. I do not belong here, Lord Barras.â She pronounced his title with an English accent to drive home just how different they were.
The man snorted at her.
One direct sound that communicated just how much he disagreed with her. Jemma felt her chin riseâjust a tiny amountâbut his attention lowered to it, noticing the stubborn motion. His eyes flashed with an equal amount of determination to see her accept his will.
Which she would not do.
âI will look forward to sunrise and my departure.â
He didnât care for her telling him what would be. Jemma witnessed the flare of resistance that lit his eyes, but he drew in a sharp breath, battling against the urge to argue with her. Jemma turned her back on him. It was a bold thing to do, possibly as foolish as riding out of Amber Hill against Synclairâs wishes.
But the tension was becoming unbearable. She had to move, do something to force the moment to pass before she buckled beneath the strain.
It was more than that . . .
She dug her fingernails into her palms while time felt as though it was frozen. She could still feel Gordon behind her.
Gordon?
When had she begun thinking of the Scot with his first name? To be sure that was going to bring her nothing but lament. The man wasnât interested in her, far from it. He considered her foolish and a nuisance. His judgment stung in spite of her determination to cast it aside by reminding herself that she shouldnât care a bit what he thought. Just because she enjoyed his glances.
And being pressed against his hard body . . .
She stiffened, trying to force the memory aside, but it was a battle that her body wasnât willing to lose. The tension became too much, and she turned her head to look back at him. The spot where the large Scot had stood was empty. Jemma turned and scanned the dark corners of the room but found them empty of anything except furniture.
He did move silently. It was a pity that it was not so simple to remove his memory from her mind. Disappointment flowed through her, prickling her with a sense of loss that she cursed.
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âMen do not always grasp what drives a woman to do the things she does.â
Ula spoke in a quiet tone that drew a snarl from her laird. But the sound did