fun.
But this, this is serious. This is more.
I sense a different kind of bond breaking as he enters me.Itâs a restriction. An artificial barrier weâve set between ourselves, and itâs shattered now.
All is open. All is honest, dangerous but wonderful.
âI love you,â he says quietly, then starts to thrust.
I canât speak, but I show him with my body that I feel the same. By holding him in my arms as tightly as I can while still allowing him to move. By hooking my legs around his body, and undulating my hips to press against him.
If only I could mold our two forms so closely together that we could become one, be inside each otherâs skin.
We rock and surge against each other, our heated perspiration almost fusing us in the way I crave. Christianâs thrusts are short, shallow, urgent, almost desperate. He braces himself on one arm for leverage, and clasps me tightly to him with the other, his fingers digging into my flesh, not in cruelty but in possession and fierce need.
The joining is manic, almost animal, and yet at the same time soaring and transcendent. Holding him, being held and owned and fucked by him, Iâm aware of my life changing as my flesh throbs with pleasure and clutches at his.
I gasp those three words, too, as my future changes shape.
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In the morning, the park outside is fresh and clean and bright with sunshine. Itâs like a brand-new world after the storms of last night, a tangled paradise as I stare out from the window.
On the mantelpiece, Christianâs clock reads a little after 6:00 a.m., but Iâm wide-awake, anticipating a busy day ahead. Iâve so much to do and I donât know how to start.
So instead, I return to bedâ¦and my man.
We said very little last night. Our bodies spoke for us. But this morning, I have to confirm not just my hopes and fears but my belovedâs.
I know he probably wants what I want, but will his ancestral notions of duty and honor stop him from taking it? He mightfeel he has to set aside his needs for what he thinks is best for me.
Time to persuade him that he canât live without me.
Lifting the sheet that covers him, I feast my eyes on his magnificent body for a few moments, loving his tousled hair and the faintly sweaty early-morning aroma of his skin. His patrician face looks younger in repose, and his long, lush eyelashes are two dark fans against his cheekbones.
I wonder whether to bend down and take his cock in my mouth. Itâs already thickening, as if itâs awake even if Christian himself isnât quite yet.
But instead, I try something different. Lying down against him I press my bottom against his thighs, and then draw his sleeping hand against its rounded shape, hoping heâll respond.
Yours , I think as his fingers automatically curve and cup me. Yours until the end of time, to spank and play with at your leisure .
âYou do know what youâre asking for, doing that, donât you?â
His voice is sleepy, yet still full of masculine power. He squeezes my cheeks briskly, already waking and ready for his treat.
âUmâ¦yes, I think so.â
âYou know, there isnât really time, my love.â Thereâs regret there, but itâs tempered with typical British stoicism. As if heâs bracing himself already for what he dreads. âIsnât your taxi coming at eight? Shouldnât you be packing?â
I canât speak. Now that I have to tell him about my decision, Iâm scared. I know Iâve read him right, and I know he cares, but stillâ¦.
âIâm not going.â
Thereâs a long silence. His hands are still upon me, but theyâre quiescent.
And then he laughs. And squeezes again.
âYouâre a very silly girl. You know that, donât you?â
âYeah, I do know itâ¦but it doesnât change things.â I pressmyself back into his hold. âIâve decided that I like rain, and