nothing now would they?” Samantha couldn’t hide her sarcasm.
“Hey…. Don’t be a grouch. Listen, you know Sandra who works in cardiology? The skinny brunette with the bushy eyebrows?”
Samantha yawned and nodded her head. “Yeah I know her. We used to use the same gym.”
“Well, I caught her and Adam together this weekend! You know Adam? The porter who usually works on the basement level?”
“Yeah….”
There was an awkward silence as Samantha waited to get off the phone. She was too exhausted to gossip and as much as she loved Julie, in the moment her rainbow colored personality and bubbly enthusiasm were too much.
“You ok?” Julie asked. “You don’t sound like your usual self. What’s up?”
“Ah nothing. Just tired,” it was almost the truth.
“Just tired? That’s all?”
“Yuh…. Just tired.”
Another long silence.
“Sammy, how long have we known each other?” Julie’s voice was now stern and Samantha imagined her on the other end of the line in one of her power stances.
“Forever Jules, since before time,” and she had to at least raise a smile to that. “Why?”
“Because I know everything about you and I can tell you’re lying.”
“I’m not really lying. I mean I am just tired,” she exhaled.
“Hmmmmm….”
“Well…. I guess there is something else,” Samantha confessed.
“I knew it!”
“Alright Jules, calm down.”
“I knew something was wrong.”
“You’re as intuitive as ever.”
Samantha expected her best friend to start rambling once again but she was surprised to hear her keep quiet. On the other end of the line she could hear the sound of a candy wrapper being twisted and pulled apart and she guessed Julie was in it for the long haul. So, knowing she was in for a lengthy conversation, she wandered back to bed while grabbing a pack of cookies on the way.
The two had known each other for so long that they often joked they were telepathic, but it was times like these when it didn’t seem like such an outlandish idea. Julie waited for the sound of the familiar squeaky bedsprings to signal Samantha was cozied into bed.
“When you’re ready gorgeous,” she soothed.
“Right…..ready,” Samantha wriggled to get a little comfier. “It’s just that I’ve been feeling really down lately. And I don’t mean just, you know, feeling blue I mean…. Just so lonely,” and as the words left her mouth the tears began to fall.
Julie could sense her sobbing and wished she could hug her through the phone.
“I know it must have been so difficult for you,”
“It was,” and she pulled the covers up over her head.
The split up was still raw in Samantha’s mind and no amount of working overtime or wine could distract her from the pain, but no matter how much she cried, she always felt at the back of her mind that she was partly to blame. She always picked the wrong guys, always went for the ones her friends warned her about. Gradually each and every one of them broke her heart and left her, but she thought Steve was different. Well, at least he pretended to be.
As she cried to Julie she thought back to the first time she met him. She’d been walking to work to catch some early morning rays of sunshine and he’d been speeding past on his motorcycle. She saw him pass twice before he eventually came round a third time and braked just ahead of her.
She didn’t have to see his face to know he was attractive. With his muscular back bulging out from his leathers and his tattooed hands on the handlebars, she knew he was just her type.
“Hey there Miss,” he pulled off his helmet and she looked into the most piercing, blue eyes.
“Hello,” she giggled coyly.
“Now what would a pretty girl like you be doing walking around at this ungodly hour?”
Then he’d looked her up and down and noticed the scrubs and the satchel she clutched under her arm.
“Going to work,” she wanted to move her eyes all over his body but she nervously looked to