that gun. Itâs not the kind with a hair trigger that just keeps going off.â
I struggled free from his embrace. With his preconceived notion, how could I possibly tell Alex the truth now? âAre all those people gone?â I asked, glad to realize that my voice sounded somewhat normal.
âYou mean the media?â
âThe media, the ambulance, the cop, the neighbor, the real estate agent.â I realized that I was gaining strength from my anger. Alex had been willing to accept Marcella Williamsâs version of what had happened.
âEveryoneâs gone except the movers.â
âThen Iâd better pull myself together somehow and tell them where I want the furniture placed.â
âCeil, tell me whatâs wrong.â
I will tell you, I thought, but only after I can somehow prove to you, and to the world, that Ted Cartwright lied about what happened that night, and that when I held that gun I was trying to defend my mother, not kill her.
I am going to tell Alexâand the whole worldâwho I am, but Iâm going to do it when I am able to learn everything I can about the full story of that night, and why Mother was so afraid of Ted. She did not let him in that night willingly. I know that. So much of the period after Mother died is a blur. I couldnât defend myself. There must be a trial transcript, an autopsy report. Things I have to find and read.
âCeil, what is wrong?â
I put my arms around him. âNothing and everything, Alex,â I said. âBut that doesnât mean that things canât change.â
He stepped back and put his hands on my shoulders. âCeil, thereâs something not working between us. I know that. Frankly, living in theapartment that was yours and Larryâs made me feel like a visitor. Thatâs why when I saw this house, and thought it was the perfect place for us, I couldnât resist. I know I shouldnât have bought it without you. I should have let Georgette Grove tell me the background of the place instead of cutting her off, although, in my own defense, from what I know now, she would have glossed over the facts even if I had listened to her.â
There were tears in Alexâs eyes. This time it was I who brushed them dry. âItâs going to be all right,â I said. âI promise Iâm going to make it be all right.â
8
J effrey MacKingsley, Prosecutor of Morris County, had a particular interest in seeing that the mischief that had once again flared up at the Barton home be squelched once and for all. He had been fourteen and in his first year in high school when the tragedy happened twenty-four years ago. At that time, he lived less than a mile away from the Barton home, and when the news spread through town about the shooting, heâd rushed over and been standing there when the cops carried out the stretcher with the body of Audrey Barton.
Even then heâd been avidly interested in crime and criminal law, so as a kid heâd read everything he could about the case.
Over the years, he had remained intrigued with the question of whether ten-year-old Liza Barton had accidentally killed her mother and shot her stepfather in defense of her mother, or was one of those kids who are born without a conscience. And they exist, Jeff thought with a sigh. They sure do exist.
Sandy-haired, with dark brown eyes, a lean athletic body, six feet tall, and quick to smile, Jeff was the kind of person law-abiding people instinctively liked and trusted. Heâd been Prosecutor of Morris County for four years now. As a young assistant prosecutor, heâd understood that if heâd been defending instead of prosecuting a case, he often could have found a loophole that would allow a felon, even a dangerous felon, to walk. That was why, when heâd been offered potentially lucrative positions in defense attorney firms, he elected instead to stay in the prosecutorâs office, where