has changed from a firm knock to a frontal assault on the door. The monster is attempting to get in. He is kicking it with his boot. Hammering at the spot where the thin deadbolt holds the fifty-year-old dry-wood door to the opposing wall.
It is only a matter of time.
The problem is that the door in front of Sheldon is also locked, and he canât manage to get it undone while holding the boy.
âCome here, you fruitcake. Open this. Open it! Goddamn it!â
But she does not open it. She has crouched down under his bed.
Is she hiding there? That would be madness. Why hide when escape is possible?
There is no option. Sheldon has to put down the boy to struggle with the lock. And when he does, the boy rushes to his mother.
Just then the front door is kicked in.
It slams into the wall. Though he canât see the front door from his angle, he hears the wood splinter and something metallic clank on the ground.
What Sheldon does next is focus.
âPanic is the enemy,â said staff sergeant OâCallihan in 1950. âPanic is not the same as being scared. Everyone gets scared. It is a survival mechanism. It tells you that something is wrong and requires your attention. Panic is when scared takes over your brain, rendering you utterly fucking useless. If you panic in the water, you will drown. If you panic on the battlefield, you will get shot. If you panic as a sniper, you will reveal your location, miss your mark, and fail your mission. Your father will hate you, your mother will ignore you, and women across this planet will be able to smell the stench of failure oozing from your very pores. So, Private Horowitz! What is the lesson here?â
âHold on a second. Itâs on the tip of my tongue.â
Sheldon focuses on the lock. There is a chain lock that he slides off. There is a deadbolt that he twists. There is a door latch that he presses downward as he also lowers his weight onto it in the hopes the hinges will not squeak.
The steps down into Sheldonâs flat are not immediately visible from the kitchen. There are two other bedrooms off the living room for the monster to search first before reaching the stairs.
It is just a matter of seconds now.
Sheldon grabs the boy by the shoulders just as the mother emerges from under the bed. There is a moment when all three are standing silently. Looking at each other. Pausing before the final assault.
A stillness happens.
Vera is framed by the doorway leading upstairs. The Norwegian summer light floods around her, and in that blessed moment she looks like a saint from a Renaissance painting. Eternal and beloved.
And then there are heavy footfalls.
Vera hears them. She opens her eyes wide, then â slowly, quietly â pushes her boy towards Sheldon, mouths something to him Sheldon doesnât understand, and then turns. Before the legs of the monster can descend the three steps, Vera, determined, rushes up the stairs and launches her whole body at him.
The boy takes a tentative step forward, but Sheldon grabs him. With his free hand, he tries the back door one more time. It still wonât open. They are trapped.
Releasing the rug and letting it fall back into position, Sheldon opens the closet door and leads the boy in. He raises his finger to his lips to signal silence. His eyes are so stern, and the boy so terrified, that not a sound passes between them.
There is screaming, heavy-body heaving and crashing, and cruelty upstairs.
He should go. He should grab the poker from by the fireplace and swing with all the force of mighty justice, and lodge the spike into the monsterâs brainstem, standing tall as his lifeless body collapses full force to the floor.
But he doesnât.
With his fingers under the doorâs edge, he pulls it closed as far as it will go.
As he hears the sound of choking, the smell of urine fills the closet. He pulls the boy to his chest, presses his lips against his head, and places his hands around