Whoâs that ?â
âAh â the son, right.â
âPardon? Who is this?â
âEr . . . look, I need to â this is awkward â Iâm Jeromeâs father and â â
âOh, right, let me just call him ââ
âNo â no â no, wait â one minute ââ
â âSno trouble â heâs having dinner, but I can call him ââ
âNo, donât â I â look, I donât want to . . . Thing is, Iâve just come from Boston . . . we only just heard, you see ââ
âOK,â said the voice in an exploratory way that Howard couldnât get a handle on.
âWell,â said Howard, swallowing hard, âIâd quite like to sound out someone in the family a little . . . before I speak properly to Jerome â he didnât explain much â and obviously . . . Iâm sure your father â â
âMy fatherâs eating too. Do you want to ââ
âNo . . . no, no, no, no, no , I mean, he wonât want to . . . no  . . . no, no â I just . . . whole thingâs a bloody mess, of course, itâs justa matter of ââ began Howard, but then could not think what indeed it was a matter of.
A cough came down the line. âLook, I donât understand â do you want me to get Jerome?â
âIâm right near you, actually ââ Howard blurted.
âExcuse me?â
âYes . . . Iâm calling from a phone-box . . . I donât really know this bit of town and . . . no map, you see. You couldnât . . . pick me up maybe? Iâm rather â Iâll only get lost if I try to get to you â no sense of direction at all . . . Iâm just at the station.â
âRight. Itâs really an easy walk, I could give you directions.â
âIf you could just pop up here, it would be very helpful â itâs getting dark already and I know Iâll take a wrong turn, and . . .â
Howard cringed into the silence.
âIâd just like to ask you a few things, you see â before I see Jerome.â
âAll right,â said the voice at last, tetchy now. âWell â let me get my coat, yeah? Outside the station, right? Queenâs Park.â
âQueens . . . ? No, I, er . . . Oh, Christ , Iâm at Kilburn â is that wrong? I thought you were in Kilburn.â
âNot really. Weâre between the two, closer to Queenâs Park. Look, just . . . Iâll come and get you, donât worry. Kilburn Jubilee line, right?â
âYes, thatâs right â thatâs very kind of you, thank you. Is it Michael?â
âYes. Mike. Youâre . . . ?â
âBelsey, Howard Belsey. Jeromeâs ââ
âYeah. Well, stay there, then, Professor. Iâll be seven minutes, maybe.â
A rough white boy lurked outside the phone-box, with a doughy face and three well-spaced spots, one on his nose, one on his cheek and one on his chin. As Howard opened the door, doing the apologetic smile thing, the boy did the uninterested in outmoded social convention thing, saying âAbout fucking time â, and then made it as difficult as possible for Howard to get out and for the boy to get in. Howardâs face glowed. Why this flush of shame, when it issomeone else who has been rude, pushing you roughly with their shoulder â why the shame? It was more than shame, though, it was also the physical capitulation â at twenty Howard might have sworn back at him or offered him out; at thirty, even at forty; but not at fifty-six, not now. Fearing an escalation ( What you looking at? ) Howard dug into his pocket and found the requisite three pounds for the nearby photo-booth. He bent his knees
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