room.
âI made cookies,â she said. âIâve been working my buns off all day cleaning and cooking.â She laughed and ran her hands through her already tousled dark hair. Her face was nice, he thought, pale but pleasant. She was very thin, and wore blue jeans and a sweater with a cigarette bum smack in the middle of it. She smoked a lot, lighting one cigarette from the butt of the one she still had. She listened hard to everything they said, listened with great intensity, nodding her head in agreement or shaking it slowly from side to side. He couldnât imagine her passed out on the couch when Keith got home from school. Maybe Keith was putting him on, trying to make his mother seem more unusual than other peopleâs mothers. He didnât really think Keith would do that, but he couldnât be absolutely sure.
Then, out of the blue, sheâd said, âJohn, why donât you stay for supper? I have to go to an AA meeting, and I donât like to leave Keith alone. Iâm an alcoholic. Maybe Keithâs told you.â Her fingers were very long, very thin, like the rest of her. Very nervous. âIâm sure heâd like the company if you could stay. Why donât you call your mother and ask her if itâs all right? Weâre having cube steaks. Iâm a whiz at cooking cube steaks.â She smiled at him, her lips stretched wide in her lean face, her lipstick smudged in the corners of her mouth. âAnd all the cookies you can eat.â
He hesitated. His mother didnât like him to stay at other peopleâs houses on school nights.
âMom,â Keith sounded weary. âJohnâs got to get going. His mother runs a very tight ship. She wants to know where he is when heâs not home.â Keithâs eyes glittered in that way they had. âIsnât that right, John? Doesnât your mother want to know where you are all the time? Sheâs very strict.â Keithâs voice lent the word new meaning.
âNot exactly.â He defended his mother, although many times he railed against her strictness. But he didnât like the tone in Keithâs voice, the way he made her sound like a prison warden. She wasnât like that. âShe likes me to check in once in a while,â he apologized for his mother.
âDonât let him kid you, Mom. Johnâs mother is a tiger. And heâs her cub,â Keith had laughed. He hadnât stayed for supper.
Twice Keith had been threatened with expulsion from school because his school fees hadnât been paid. âMy mother doesnât get the money from her trust fund until January,â heâd explained nonchalantly. âTheyâll have to wait until then. Gleason knows whatâs what. He knows she canât pay until then. Heâll have to cool it. She pays when she gets the bread. Thatâs what rich people do. They donât pay their bills every month. Only squares do that.â
With shame, he thought of the neat pile of bills his father laid on the hall table the first of every month, stamped and tidy, waiting for the mailman. The first of the month was bill-paying day in his family. Once, when his father had been sick with flu, he remembered his mother doing the bills. Nothing but death would stop their inexorable bill paying, he was sure. Another fact to be buried, hidden from Keithâs voracious gaze. God, how middle-class his parents were.
âIs your mother rich?â heâd asked.
âHer family has money. Thatâs how she latched onto a trust fund. Her grandfather was loaded. He owned a railroad. He left her and her sisters a bundle. But she canât get her hands on it,â Keith had said, grinning. âThe way the money was left, the lawyer doles it out, inch by inch. Boy, does my mother hate that lawyer. She claims heâs stealing her blind. If she could figure out a way, sheâd scrag him good. Sometimes, when things
Michele Boldrin;David K. Levine