his rifle back in place.
âWell, Valérie?â
He turned to Ãlise.
âHave you been crying?â
She shook her head.
âHas she been crying, Valérie?â
âNo, Désiré, you mustnât worry about it. You know she canât help it.â
He knew, but he did not understand. That was why Ãlise had said earlier to Valérie:
âYou know, Désiré is the best of men, but he doesnât feel things as we do.â
What did he feel? He lived. He ate. He slept. He had a good job. Starting as the youngest at Monsieur Monnoyeurâs, he had become his right-hand man and it was he who held the key to the safe.
What did it matter if he earned only 150 francs a month? Had they ever gone hungry? Well then!
âEat up, Désiré.â
He suddenly remembered that that morning, passing Kreutzâs toyshop next to his homeâhis home, as he still called it, was his parentsâ houseâhe had seen a whole display of masks, false noses and rattles.
âItâs the first Sunday of the Carnival,â he announced.
Ãlise did not understand why he should talk about that. The first Sunday was the childrenâs carnival. Désiré was just remembering the carnivals of his childhood.
âAre the carrots sweet enough?â
âTheyâre good. Did you cook them, Valérie?â
âPoor Valérie, if you only knew the trouble she goes to! I keep wondering what we should have done without her!â
âBut seeing that weâve got her!â
Precisely! Seeing that Valérie was there, what was the point of worrying? Oh, he didnât feel things!
âFélicie came this morning.â
âWas she squiffy?â
A word they used to signify ⦠not exactly drunk ⦠not entirely sober either â¦
âDésiré!â
She jerked her head towards Valérie.
âWell? Doesnât Valérie know that your sister ⦠Another piece of meat, Valérie? Yes do, you must keep your strength up â¦â
Until three oâclock, the streets remained empty, or nearly empty. Then a few families appeared, dressed in dark clothes and dragging masked children along behind them without much enthusiasm. A little toreador went by, shivering in a ratteen overcoat and waving a rattle in one hand while he was pulled along by the other.
âWhat about your mother, Désiré?â
âSheâll come. You know that itâs an adventure for her, crossing the bridges.â
âValérie, you donât think the babyâs choking, do you?â
He was breathing badly, there was no doubt about that. You ought not to be able to hear a babyâs breathing like that. What would Madame Mamelin say, she who was so fond of repeating that Ãlise was a sickly creature?
âHave you looked in the cupboard on the landing, Valérie? Thereâs nothing lying around?â
For her mother-in-law was perfectly capable of opening the cupboard on the landing to prove that Ãlise was a poor housekeeper! Ãlise had taken her big Désiré away from her and that was something she would never forgive.
âYouâre sure we oughtnât to offer her something? A glass of liqueur? Some cakes?â
âI tell you a mother whoâs just had a baby never offers anything to her callers. On the contrary, itâs up to them to bring something.â
He considered it natural for people to bring something! Whereas Ãlise would have liked to give something in return, to give more than she received, never to be obliged. She was a Peters.
âI can hear a noise.â
He opened the door and called out gaily:
âIs that you, Mother?â
The people on the first floor had gone out, and there was no longer any need to keep quiet.
âWait a minute and Iâll put on the light. These stairs are so dark.â
He was happy, so happy.
âCome in ⦠Come in, Cécileâ¦â
It was his