Chase, but I wasn’t in love with him. It took me awhile to get to that point, but it felt freeing once I did.
“I’ll take your council under advisement,” I replied, but with a cheeky grin so he knew I wasn’t upset at him or felt he had overstepped the boundaries I had set in relation to talking about my past. Chase loved me and wanted what was best for me.
“I just want you to be happy, J.”
“I am happy.” Chase narrowed his eyes in skepticism. Well, I was content for the most part, but there were moments of happiness. I loved my career and then there was Miller’s visit, which really made me happy – even though it was just sex. My heart lurched as I remembered how the light touch of him sweeping my hair off of my forehead woke me and how I pretended to stay asleep to avoid any awkwardness. There was something really sweet about the way he covered me up before he left, but that didn’t change the fact that we hooked up and nothing more.
“Ok,” Chase said in surrender. “I’ll mind my own business.”
“Do you need help moving?” I wanted to change the subject, but was surprised at the path I took.
“That would be awesome. You can get to know Gray better,” Chase replied, beaming from ear to ear. Inwardly I cringed, because getting to know me was probably the last thing Gray wanted to do. Outwardly I smiled, because I’d do just about anything to make Chase happy.
That was how I found myself standing inside his apartment looking into two sets of hostile eyes the following Saturday. Gray, I understood. He saw me as a threat and I would do my best to put him at ease unless he proved to be an asshole and then I’d push his buttons – harmlessly, of course. Miller’s hostility came as a complete surprise. Those eyes once twinkled with mirth or darkened with desire when cast upon me, but right then they were cold and distant. It was like I wasn’t looking at the same man.
“Oh, hey, J,” Chase said, walking out of the back hallway with two boxes in his arms, “you’re just in time to do some heavy lifting.”
“Let me help you, babe,” Gray said, moving over to take the top box off of the stack.
“Thanks, honey.” I was only there for two minutes and was ready to gag from the sweetness. I questioned my sanity for subjecting myself to this lovefest. “Oh, you and Miller haven’t formerly met have you? Dr. Miller Brexler, meet my good friend, Jagger Jackson, attorney at law.”
“They’re two manwhoring peas in a cluster fuck pod,” I heard Gray mutter as he and Chase exited the apartment. I would have laughed, but I was still thrown over Miller’s chilly demeanor.
“Doctor, huh? Well, I have this ache that…”
“Save it.” Miller’s snarl cut off what I had intended to say. “First, I’m not that kind of doctor and second, what the fuck are you doing here?”
“I came here to…”
“… fuck things up for my friend. Look, we have plenty of help so why don’t you just make your excuses and leave.”
“Wait a goddamn minute,” I replied angrily. “Just who the fuck do you think you are?” I didn’t realize that I had advanced on him until we were nearly chest to chest. “Neither you nor Gray decide who Chase gets to keep as a friend. He’s a grown man who is fully capable of making his own decisions, Doc.” I loved that Miller had to tilt his head back to look into my eyes.
“Is he choosing to keep you around as a friend because he wants to or is it because he feels bad that you don’t have anyone else?” His words were like a sharp dagger to my heart. I jerked back a step from him as if he landed a physical blow to my body instead of a verbal jab. My only consolation was the look of horror that spread across his face as soon as he realized what he said. He opened his mouth as if to apologize, but he didn’t get the chance.
“He has me,” came a furious female voice behind me. I couldn’t help but smile that Ava was ready to swoop in and save