Primal Scream (Box Set #1, Taboo Sex + AFF) by Jess C Scott Read Free Book Online Page A

sister, or good friends. It’s evolved into something deeper...how do you explain or describe this...and what if...I mean I can’t guarantee anything, but in a worst case scenario, what if it just falls apart along the way?!
    But it seems to be going along good...and I realize that if someone asks, “How do you know this is love?”...I don’t know how to answer...I just know that it is.
    Everyone has an opinion...but how do you define a belief. People make statements without bothering to comprehend...all I know is that Ed and I are two people who are able and willing...to tune into each other’s complexities...this is stimulating in so many ways that I just can’t express...and real love, real love . If this is what it is...how can we be wrong?
     
    [Ed / 25 June 2008]
     
    Rafiz, he’s The Man. Oh man he was online and Julie was on too. Ruffy and I were chatting about the TEFL thing, and Julie and I were chatting about how lost we are, I mean we’re still there for each other but we’re both really so confused and don’t really know what to do but I still love it/her/Julie/life/everything . Ruffy asked about Julie, so I told her he said hi, and she asks if Ruffy can be trusted and I say “yeah I think so,” and she says “is it ok if he knows about us? just for somebody’s opinion/perspective on this,” and after a while I say ok, and so he’s the only other soul that knows about us, and sworn to the grave to secrecy.
    I started with “hey Julie came over to my place for a couple of weeks,” and Ruffy said “that’s cool,” then he asked if we liked staying together. I said “yes very much.”
    And then I got straight to the point and said “we’re in love, what do we do.” I added “if you don’t understand, it’s ok...just keep it to yourself.”
    At first he said “just do what lovers do.” I said “uhm I’m talking about Julie and myself...as in we kind of like each other, that way,” and Rafiz said “what? how involved are you”...and I said “like...uhm...it involves a bed. yeah.”
    He typed: “OMFG” and
    “ I just fell off the chair!!” and
    “ THAT’S SOOOOOO HOT!!! I support you 100%, love is love...”
    And I said to knock it off coz the caps and exclamation points are getting scary, and Rafiz says “no problem” and that if anyone asks him about us, he’ll say he’s not in contact with us anymore. Ignorance=Bliss.
    He said “if you feel this is what you want, go for it!” and “ok, focus. yes, this conversation never took place...”
    And so I said what do we do, because I wanna go for this teaching/traveling thing, but you’ve gotta be 21 so Julie has to wait for a bit if she’s gonna do it too, and he says “excellent, this is so cool.”
    He says no matter what we decide to do, he thinks it’s best to keep it quiet from people we know here (besides him), and have fun for now.
    Then he goes on about going for a trip far away and having a date, and how over there we could “go to a nice restaurant and hold each other’s hands in public,” maybe wait till there are “some people around, and you could lean across the table and kiss,” and I say “do you have a secret sister that I don’t know about?” and he says no but that he’s “sooo jealous” that I do, HA-HA-HA...he also says that “this is no one else's business,” and not to listen to judgmental people, who are the ones that hate and start wars.
    Dammit, he should run for President.
    So I guess I’m gonna sign up for the thing...one more month’s savings should be enough...see how it works out...everything looks like it’s somehow falling into place?...and if by some miracle all does go well...I’ll be in some country, I dunno where, with freedom ah, brilliant freedom and flexibility...
    Only intensely, painfully, agonizingly, waiting upon the stars and moon and all the universe, for one last thing:
    Julie.
     
    [Julie : 18 July 2009]
     
    One year ago, Ed and I embarked on the most