from here.â
âBut if you owned your own home, think of the equity youâd have built up by now.â
âI understand the advantages, but my income is up and down and I donât want to be saddled with a mortgage. Iâm happy to let Henry worry about taxes and upkeep.â
Charlotte gave me a lookâtoo polite to express her skepticism at my shortsightedness.
As I left them, she and Henry had taken up their conversation. She was talking about rental properties, using the equity from his place as leverage for a triplex sheâd just listed in Olvidado, where housing wasnât so expensive. She said the units needed work, but if he made the necessary improvements and then flipped the place, heâd net a tidy profit, which he could then reinvest. I tried not to shriek in alarm, but I sincerely hoped she wasnât going to talk him into something absurd.
Maybe I didnât like her quite as much as I thought.
6
Under ordinary circumstances, Iâd have walked the half block to Rosieâs Tavern to eat supper that night. Sheâs Hungarian and cooks accordingly, leaning heavily on sour cream, dumplings, strudels, creamed soups, cheesy noodles, cabbage-related side dishes, plus your choice of beef or pork cubes cooked for hours and served with tangy horseradish sauce. I was hoping sheâd know whether Gus Vronsky had relatives in the area and if so, how to make contact. Given my newfound goal of better balanced meals and more wholesome nutrition, I decided to postpone the conversation until after Iâd eaten supper.
My evening meal consisted of a peanut-butter-and-pickle sandwich on whole wheat bread with a handful of corn chips, which Iâm almost certain could be considered a grain. I grant you peanut butter is nearly 100 percent fat, but itâs still a good source of protein. Further, there was bound to be a culture somewhere that classified a bread-and-butter pickle as a vegetable. For dessert, I treated myself to a handful of grapes. The latter I ate while I lay on my sofa and brooded about Cheney Phillips, whom Iâd dated for two months. Longevity has never been my strong suit.
Cheney was adorable, but âcuteâ isnât sufficient to sustain a relationship. Iâm difficult. I know this. I was raised by a maiden aunt who thought to foster my independence by giving me a dollar every Saturday and Sunday morning, and turning me out on my own. I did learn to ride the bus from one end of town to the other and I could cheat my way into two movies for the price of one, but she wasnât big on companionship, and because of that, being âcloseâ makes me sweaty and short of breath.
Iâd noticed that the longer Cheney and I dated, the more I was entertaining fantasies of Robert Dietz, a man I hadnât heard from in two years. What that told me was that I preferred to bond with someone who was always out of town. Cheney was a cop. He liked action, a fast pace, and the company of others, where I prefer to be alone. For me, small talk is hard work and groups of any size wear me down.
Cheney was a man who started many projects and finished none. During the time we were together, his floors were perpetually covered with drop cloths and the air smelled of fresh paint though I never saw him lift a brush. The hardware had been removed from all the interior doors, which meant you had to stick your finger through a hole and pull when you passed from room to room. Behind his two-car garage he had a truck up on blocks. It was out of sight and the neighbors had no complaints, but the same crescent wrench had been rained on so often the rust formed a wrench-shaped pattern on the drive.
I like closure. It drives me nuts to see a cabinet door left ajar. I like to plan. I prepare in advance and leave nothing to chance, while Cheney fancies himself a free spirit, taking life on the wing. At the same time, I buy on impulse, and Cheney spends weeks doing