Radiant Shadows by Melissa Marr Read Free Book Online

pups: Tish was almost mortal, and Rabbit had known how different the two girlswere from each other long before they did. He didn’t talk about those things, and Ani didn’t do anything that demonstrated how different she was from Tish. She’d kept that as secret as she could, for as long as she could. Life was about secrets and pretending. It had been that way since Jillian died.
    Jillian wasn’t even a face in Ani’s memories; she was hands and too-fast words trying to get Ani-and-Tish—their names were already just one word then—to hide and “stay quiet, please quiet like you’re bunnies. For Mama?”
    And after, when it was just Ani and Tish, when Jillian never came back to open the cupboard where the girls stayed still and waiting, Ani remembered that part too. Tish was sad, broken somewhere inside that Ani couldn’t fix. She pretended though, for Ani. Tish held on to Ani, and late that night Tish pushed the buttons they had on the phone to the “special number for trouble.” That was when Irial came and took them to Rabbit; that was when Irial made them safe in a new home.
    Tish didn’t remember that day. She’d erased it from her memory, locked it away somewhere. The before and the after was what Tish remembered: Irial, Rabbit, and a new home. Tish never remembered the other parts.
    Ani did.
    Remembering Jillian not coming back made Ani feel raw inside. The day when Jillian was gone and Tish was sad was the first complete memory that Ani had. Life, as she remembered it, began for Ani in that moment.
    “Hey, you okay?” Tish grabbed Ani’s hand and pulled her to the side of a group of guys headed into the club. “You weren’t listening to a thing I said, were you?”
    “Sorry, Sis.” Ani flashed a fake smile. “The whole nonsense with Gabr—”
    “Dad,” Tish corrected.
    “With Gabriel not letting me relax with any of the Hounds has me all out of sorts.” Ani had found lying increasingly impossible the older she got, but she’d picked up the importance of misdirection years ago. She was out of sorts with Gabriel. That might not be what she’d just been thinking, but it was a true statement.
    “He’s a good person. Give him a chance.”
    “He’s never been a father, not like Rabbit.” Ani didn’t want to admit that being in the Dark Court wasn’t everything she dreamed of, not even to Tish. Being surrounded by the Hounds and the Dark Court should make her feel less alone, but the exact opposite had happened. “It’s not like I’m a pup. And his not letting you and me live in the same place, keeping me away from you and Rab, is no good.”
    “I miss you too.” Tish always gave voice to the stuff Ani couldn’t deal with or even admit she needed to deal with.
    Ani leaned her shoulder against the wall, enjoying the way the rough edges of brick felt against her bare back. It anchored her in the now —which was where she needed to be, not dwelling on memories best kept boxed up.
    “Are you coping?” Tish gestured vaguely. They neverreally talked about the way Ani craved contact—or the consequences of her getting too much of it.
    “Sure.” Ani watched a group of guys head toward the door. They weren’t faery-pretty or emotional feasts, but they were on the prowl. For her, right then, that was good enough. It has to be. She could take a taste from each of them, a touch here and an emotion there, to keep the hungers at bay.
    Not both. Never both from the same person.
    She linked her arm through Tish’s. “Come on.”
    Glenn was working the door. He winced as they approached. “And here it was looking like such a good night.”
    “Jerk.” Tish cuddled into his open arms. “You’d miss me if I didn’t stop in.”
    “Sure, but when you have your partner in chaos…” He wrapped an arm familiarly around Tish’s waist and lifted her into his lap.
    Ani tilted her head inquiringly. This is new . And Ani hadn’t seen it because living with the Hounds meant not seeing her sister