Mario?â
âNo doubt of it,â he said bleakly.
âYouâre very kind, both of you. Now, excuse me, gentlemen.â
Giving them both a polite smile, she headed for the lift.
Upstairs, she plunged into work, making more notes about the morning before things went out of her head. She was so immersed in her work that at first she didnât hear the knock on the door. It had to be repeated louder to capture her attention.
âSorry,â she said, pulling it open, âI got soââ She checked herself at the sight of Mario standing there with a trolley of food.
âYour meal,
signorina
,â he said.
She stared at the sight of the food. Someone had taken a lot of trouble preparing this meal, which Mario laid out for her with care.
âGiorgio told the kitchen to produce their best, to make sure you stay with us,â he said. âSo you have chicory risotto, followed by tiramisù, with Prosecco.â
Her favourite wine. How many times had he ordered it for her in Venice? And he had remembered.
âItâs delicious,â she said politely as she ate.
âIâll tell Giorgio you approve. And I brought you this,â he said, handing her a large file.
It was the information sheâd requested about the
ComunitÃ
âhotels, owners, background information.
âThat man I met today seems to come from the biggest and best,â she said, flicking through it. âThe Albergo Splendido.â
âIt was a palace once. Youâll like it. Youâre making a considerable impression, you know.â
âAmadore certainly seemed to think so.â
âJust donât take him too seriously. He flirts with every woman on the planet.â
She gave a brief laugh. âYou warned me about Giorgio; now youâre warning me about Amadore. But you donât need to. I can recognise when a man is role-playing. He puts on a performance as the âromantic Italianâ because he thinks an Englishwoman is bound to be fooled. I donât mind. Heâs charming. But donât expect me to fall for it.â
âI suppose I should have known youâd say that,â Mario growled. âI wonder if you ever fall for anything.â
âNot these days. Never again.â
âAnd you think thatâs admirable?â
âI think itâs safe.â
âAnd safety matters more than anything else? Never mind who you hurt.â
She turned on him, her quick temper rising. âWho
I
hurt? Did I really hear you say that? After what you did?â
âI didnât do what you thought I did, and I could have explained. But you vanished without giving me a chance to defend myself.â
âWhat was there to defend? I know what I saw.â
âNatasha, why wonât you realise that you misunderstood what you saw? Yes, Iâd been having an affair with Tania. Iâm not a saint. Iâve never pretended to be. But it was only a casual relationship and Iâd started to feel that it must end. Things had changed in my life. Iâd met you and nothing looked the same. I had to face the fact that I wanted you, not her.
âSo that day I met Tania and told her we couldnât be together any more. But I couldnât make her believe it. When I left her she followed me, and that was how she found us together.
âI went after her, trying to explain that I was sorry to hurt her, but she screamed at me and ran off. I came back to our table, hoping I could make you understand. But you were gone. I tried your phone but youâd turned it off. I went to the hotel but youâd left just a few minutes earlier. Over the next few days I tried your phone, your email, your apartment, but youâd shut off every way of contacting you. It was like youâd ceased to exist.â
âExactly. I
had
ceased to exist. The girl I was thenânaive, slightly stupid, ready to be fooledâvanished into nothing. But now
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