that my father tried to trade me for. It felt good to tell someone besides Romero about Aaron. It was especially helpful to hear about Raven’s encounter with one of the Sons that ended with her stabbing him through the hand.
At one point, she turned to look back out the window. I couldn’t stop myself from trying to cheer her up. “He’ll come back, too. I know it.”
“Who?”
“Your man. I’m sure he’ll be just fine.” I gave her a reassuring smile.
She laughed. “That's not what’s itching at me.”
Just as I thought, I’d guessed wrong. Maybe she was someone’s sister or daughter, just like me. Not everyone is a lovesick fool , I scolded myself.
“I know he’ll come back. Gunner is indestructible. I’m itchy because I should be in that fight. I should be beside them as they ride up Highway 5.”
Raven had true sadness in her voice, and I was stunned. She did have a man going into battle, but she wanted to be there, too? I was scared, but so glad to be away from the fight.
“Why aren’t you? Did you draw the short straw, and so you have to give me the ride to safety?”
She shook her head. “No, although that would have been equally shitty.” She pushed the tea away. Raven’s hands moved to her stomach. “I’m actually riding for two, and so Gunner and I decided it would be best if I didn’t get into old school broken glass and bike chain brawls.”
I couldn't help the smile that appeared. I sucked in a breath and covered my mouth. “Oh my god, you’re pregnant!”
She leaned forward. “All right, all right. The whole world doesn’t need to know.”
“It makes sense now!”
She nodded, clearly tired of being gushed over, “I’m so glad it makes sense. I’ve got a nine-month freeze on all the good stuff. No drinking, no fighting. The only reason I’m on two wheels is for pack safety. I can’t wait to get this little demon out, so I can hit the road, again.”
Raven didn’t seem like the type to take some teasing, but I couldn’t help it. There was something I liked about her. “You talk a big game, but you should see your face. You are absolutely glowing!”
“That’s it, I’m leaving you stranded in Nowhere, Cali. Maybe they’ve got an opening here for you.”
I laughed and caught sight of the waitress staring at us. I knew we were talking a bit too loud, but it didn't seem to matter. We were both road-worn, and I’d like to think I looked at least half as tough as Raven did. Two strong women on a motorcycle? I felt a touch of that invincibility that Raven had mentioned.
The two-hour ride to Bakersfield wasn’t nearly as bad as I thought. After a bit of a break and a nice chat with Raven, I felt like I had a bit of myself back. The worry was still there inside me, but I was able to think about other things.
I really was certain that Romero would come back. It wasn’t that I thought was invincible, but he and I had so much left to do. After three months together, we were just discovering each other. We’d driven to the sea and into the mountains, but we hadn’t truly lived yet. On top of all that, there was that big, pink elephant in the room. It had taken me a long time to get past it, but I was so ready for Romero to make me a woman.
As we rolled into Bakersfield, I felt alive. The city seemed new and fresh to me. Maybe it was just the change of scenery that I desperately needed. I can almost put out of my mind the horror and hell happening in Davis.
At the stoplight, Raven glanced back to me. “Almost there.”
Not that the answer would mean anything to me, but I asked anyway, “Where are we heading?”
“To the matriarch for re-indoctrination.”
The red light changed to green, and Raven took off before I could ask just what in the fuck that meant. I told myself to start getting used to being in the dark. They may have been bikers like my father and brother, but it all seemed so brand new and different.
The city of