Risky Christmas by Jill Sorenson Read Free Book Online

candy bar while everyone was distracted and walked home.”
    Her mouth dropped open.
    â€œYou take good care of your girls, Leah. My mother wouldn’t even have noticed if my sister or I disappeared.”
    â€œI’m sorry,” she said.
    â€œDon’t be. I turned out fine.”
    â€œIs your mother still alive?”
    He nodded, glancing away. The irony of the situation wasn’t lost on him. Brenda had been a loving, conscientious parent, like Leah. And yet, she’d died young while their drug-addled mom soldiered on. “It doesn’t seem fair, does it?”
    â€œNo.”
    â€œWas your husband—” He cut himself off, realizing the inappropriateness of the question.
    â€œWas he what?”
    He bit the bullet. “Was he a good dad?”
    â€œNo,” she admitted, after a short hesitation.
    Brian stared at her in amazement. The answer was unexpected, but plainly sincere. “Why not?”
    â€œHe was a good man, and he loved the girls, but he gambled. The habit…devoured him. It took him away from us.”
    Her confession was like a punch in the gut. He didn’t understand how a man could fail such a beautiful family.
    â€œSometimes I’m glad he’s dead,” she said, her voice flat. “Mandy and Alyssa weren’t old enough to understand what he was going through. In their eyes, he was perfect. If he’d lived, I’m afraid he would have continually disappointed them.”
    He knew what she meant. In his twenties, he’d given up hope that his mother would change, but he’d never been able to stop caring about her. Even now, she had the power to let him down.
    â€œYou think I’m terrible.”
    â€œI’d be a hypocrite if I thought that.”
    She examined his face. “Is that why you were alone on Christmas? Being with your mother is too difficult?”
    He leaned back against the couch, resting his arm on the frame. “It’s difficult, yes. I haven’t been in touch with her since Brenda’s funeral. It was frustrating to see her grieve. Too little, too late, if that makes sense.”
    Her eyes softened with understanding.
    â€œI also wanted to be alone this year. Or, I thought that was what I wanted.”
    â€œWhy?”
    â€œChristmas is always weird for me,” he said. “I have a friend from the foster care system that I sometimeshang out with, but he got married last summer. This year he went with his wife to visit her family for the holidays.”
    â€œYou’ve never been married?”
    â€œNo.”
    â€œWhat about a steady girlfriend?”
    â€œNo one lately,” he said, feeling heat creep up his neck. He hoped she wouldn’t ask how long he’d been sleeping alone. “My friend’s wife has threatened to put my picture on an internet dating site.”
    She laughed, raking a hand through her hair. “You should let her.”
    Brian watched her intently, fascinated by every line of her face. He had no intention of allowing Gretchen to take over his love life. If he couldn’t find a woman on his own, he didn’t deserve one. “You should let me give you a swimming lesson.”
    She stopped laughing.
    â€œIt’s easy.”
    â€œFor you, maybe.”
    â€œIf you were more comfortable in the water, you could relax at the beach.” When she chewed on the edge of her thumbnail, wavering, he said, “You also need to know how to swim for your daughters’ safety.”
    â€œNow you’re giving me a guilt-trip.”
    â€œWhatever works.”
    â€œWhere is this pool?”
    â€œAbout ten minutes away. We’d have it all to ourselves. The girls can swim, too.”
    â€œThey’d like that,” she admitted.
    He wished she’d say yes because she wanted to. “I can’t imagine where I’d be if I never had that first surfing lesson. It changed my life.”
    She held up a hand to ward