missed hearing him speak.
I opened my eyes and made myself listen to him talk about the food pyramid, which weâd all learned about in, like, second grade. I almost wished he was reading about something Iâd never heard about before so Iâd have to concentrate on the words and take notes instead of listening to his voice.
I couldnât do that âwaver. Iâd made my choice and I couldnât go back and forth. Because if I started to think about Jacob, then my mind wandered to Eric. And I missed him so much even though I refused to think about it.
After we finished going through the chapter and Utz assigned homework, she dismissed the class.
âI have to go to riding,â I said to Jacob. I looked at my bag while I talked to him. âDo you want to take it first?â
Jacob gathered his stuff and stood. âSure. And we can text or something tomorrow and trade.â
I handed the egg to him, careful that our fingers didnât touch. âHereâs the notebook,â I said.
Paige was still busy trading info with Aaron, so I waved at her and walked out of the classroom. Sheâd understand that I didnât want to stay in here with Jacob.
Later that afternoon, I went to my riding lesson. I walked into the tack room and Julia and Alison were inside.
âHey,â I said. I put Charmâs saddle pad over my arm and reached to grab his saddle. I noticed that his tack was filthyâhow embarrassing. I needed to clean it ASAP.
âThis isnât going to last much longer,â Julia said.
âWhat?â I asked.
Julia rolled her eyes. âAlison and I not riding. Weâre going to be back in the saddle sooner than anyone thinks.â
Alison glanced at Julia, then at me. âWe canât keep watching everyone else ride. Itâs killing us.â
I put Charmâs saddle over my arm and grabbed hisbridle. âIâm sorry itâs so hard. Maybe you guys should avoid the arenas when lessons are going on. Take Trix and Sunstruck for a walk on the trails. You know they want to get out too.â
Alison nodded. âThatâs a good idea. Weâve got to do something. Theyâre going crazy in their stalls, even though Mike rides them whenever he has time.â
âBut Mikeâs not you guys,â I said. âI get it.â
I left them in the tack room and groomed and tacked up Charm. I couldnât imagine being in Juliaâs and Alisonâs position. Iâd die without Charm and heâd never be happy with a stranger riding him. It had to torture Alison and Julia every time they stepped into the stable. Their ban from riding wasnât lifted until January and they had a looong way to go till then.
I put on my helmet and led Charm to the indoor arena. I mounted and started warming him up. I leaned down and hugged his neck, grateful to have him.
âHow sad,â Jas said, entering the arena on Phoenix. âYou donât have a boyfriend so youâve resorted to making out with your horse.â
âThatâs exactly what I was doing,â I said. âYou caught me.â
I looked away and trotted Charm forward. I wasactually glad when Heather rode inside. At least Jas would keep her mouth shutâsort ofâwhen Heather was around. We all warmed up our horses while waiting for Mr. Conner.
I halted Charm, backed him up, and then started him at a trot. A few strides later, I slowed him again and began working him in circles that got smaller and smaller.
âI know youâre dense, but practice hasnât started yet,â Heather said. âThis is called a warm-up .â She said the last two words slowly.
âWe are,â I said. âWhatever.â
Before I could turn Charm in the opposite direction, Mr. Conner entered the arena with a smile. We halted our horses in front of him.
âHi, girls,â Mr. Conner said. âIâd intended for us to practice inside today, but