Heâd let his clothes dry while on him. His neckcloth had deteriorated to a wrinkled lump, his shirtsleeves hung like limp rags from his broad shoulders, his trousers sagged at the knees, and his boots had acquired a crust of dried muck.
She took in the sight in the instant before he looked up.
âOh, Rothwick, you havenât even changed out of your clothes,â she said.
He stared at her for a moment as though he didnât recognize her. Then his dark eyes narrowed. âNot an apparition, it seems. No such luck. Weâre done, Miss Findley. Didnât you say so? Go away. Forgive me for not getting up, but I donât want to encourage you. You shouldnât have encouraged me, by the wayâbut itâs ungentlemanly to point that out.â
âYouâre foxed,â she said.
âAm I? Good. Iâve been trying damn hard.â
This was what she got for hesitating and dithering. If sheâd come sooner, heâd still be lucid. What could she expect to accomplish now? She wanted to go back out and close the door behind her and get started on the long process of making herself forget him.
But the image hung in her mindâs eye: the brief, unguarded moment when heâd looked at her letter and sheâd seen . . . a something in his eyes that might have been grief. A degree more evident was the disappointment that drew down the corners of his firm mouth.
And yes, it was most likely the money he was disappointed about, but there was only one way to be sure.
âI should never have expected this of you,â she said. âGetting drunk after being jilted. Could you not do something less clichéd?â
He cocked an eyebrow. âA sharp-tongued wench it is. Youâd have been the devil to live with. Iâm well out of it.â
âYouâre not the most accommodating individual yourself,â she said. âYou come storming into a placeâfee, fie, foe, fumâknocking aside any small, annoying things that get in the way. Like people.â
âIf you refer to those pests who were sniffing at your skirts, thatâs exactly what one does with vermin.â
âIn my world, those are eligible men,â she said. âBut they havenât titlesââ
âOr a shilling to their nameââ
âNeither have you,â she said.
âBut Iâm an aristocratic debtor,â he said. He waved his wine glass in the air. âNo, better than thatâa peer. They canât imprison me for debt. I should have ignored it, the way my father did. Trouble is . . .â He brought the glass close to his face, swayed the glass a little, and watched the wine slosh against its sides. âTrouble is, the houses are falling down. On my head. Plaster.â He looked up at the ceiling of the inn parlor. âSitting there at home, drinking a little wine, minding my own business, and down come little bits of the ceiling.â
He drank, set down the glass on the table at his elbow, and refilled it from one of the bottles crowding its surface. âIs that what put you off?â he said. âEverything falling to pieces? But it isnât every room. Didnât I tell you that?â
âYou told me,â she said. Heâd described the state of his houses and properties with a disarmingly matter-of-fact wit. Everyone said he was an overbearing, conceited, arrogant bastard. But she thought he was charming, and funny, too. And she found his sarcasm sweet. He was nothing like any other man sheâd ever met, and sheâd met scores. From the time she was seventeen, theyâd been descending upon Little Etford to try their luck at winning her heartâand the ridiculous marriage portion her father had saddled her with.
All in hopes of this.
A title.
And of all the men, all the well-behaved, eager-to-please men, she had to fall in love with him .
âVery well,â he said, nodding. âNo hard