Sarah's Key by Tatiana De Rosnay Read Free Book Online

shudder of the bombs seeped through the grimy floor, making Mademoiselle Dixsaut’s voice falter and stop, Armelle would grab the girl’s hand and hold it tight.
    She missed Armelle, she wished Armelle could be here now, to hold her hand and tell her not to be afraid. She missed Armelle’s freckles and her mischievous green eyes and her insolent grin. Think of the things you love, of the things that make you happy.
    Last summer, or was it two summers ago, she couldn’t remember, Papa had taken them to spend a couple of days in the countryside by a river. She couldn’t remember the name of the river. But the water had felt so smooth and wonderful to her skin. Her father had tried to teach her to swim. After a few days, she managed an inelegant dog paddle that made everybody laugh. By the river, her brother had gone mad with joy and excitement. He was tiny then, a mere toddler. She had spent the day running after him as he slipped and shrieked along the muddy shore. And Maman and Papa had looked so peaceful, young, and in love, her mother’s head against her father’s shoulder. She remembered the little hotel by the water, where they had eaten simple, succulent meals beneath the cool, leafy bower, and when the
patronne
had asked her to help behind the counter, and there she was handing out coffee and feeling very grown up and proud, until she dropped coffee on someone’s foot, but the
patronne
had been very nice about it.
    The girl lifted her head, saw her mother talking to Eva, a young woman who lived near them. Eva had four young children, a bunch of rambunctious boys the girl wasn’t overly fond of. Eva’s face, like her mother’s, looked haggard and old. How was it they looked so much older overnight, she wondered. Eva was Polish, too. Her French, like her mother’s, was not good. Like the girl’s mother and father, Eva had family back in Poland. Her parents, aunts, and uncles. The girl remembered the awful day—when was it?—not very long ago, when Eva had received a letter from Poland, and she had turned up at the apartment, her face streaming with tears, and she had broken down in her mother’s arms. Her mother had tried to comfort Eva, but the girl could tell she was stricken as well. Nobody wanted to tell the girl exactly what had happened, but the girl understood, hung on to every Yiddish word she could make out between the sobs. Something terrible, back in Poland, entire families had been killed, houses burnt down, only ashes and ruins remained. She had asked her father if her grandparents were safe. Her mother’s parents, the ones whose black-and-white photograph was on the marble mantelpiece in the living room. Her father had said that he did not know. There had been very bad news from Poland. But he wouldn’t tell her what the news was.
    As she looked at Eva and her mother, the girl wondered if her parents had been right to protect her from everything, if they had been right to keep disturbing, bad news away from her. If they had been right not to explain why so many things had changed for them since the beginning of the war. Like when Eva’s husband never came back last year. He had disappeared. Where? Nobody would tell her. Nobody would explain. She hated being treated like a baby. She hated the voices being lowered when she entered the room.
    If they had told her, if they had told her everything they knew, wouldn’t that have made today easier?
     
     

     
     
    I’M FINE, JUST TIRED, that’s all. So who’s coming tonight then?”
    Before Hervé could answer, Christophe entered the room, a vision of Parisian chic, khaki and cream overtones, exuding expensive men’s perfume. Christophe was a little younger than Hervé, tanned all year round, skinny, and wore his long salt-and-pepper hair tied back in a thick ponytail, la Karl Lagerfeld.
    Almost simultaneously, the doorbell rang.
    “Aha,” said Christophe, blowing me a kiss, “that must be Guillaume.”
    He rushed to the front