Sashenka by Simon Sebag Montefiore Read Free Book Online

shoes always had holes in them.
    Alongside her dapper father and fashionable mother, he really was a stranger from another planet. If he caught Sashenka’s eye, he scowled and glanced away. He looked terribly ill, she thought, with his pale blotchy skin and asthmatic wheeze, the fruit of years in prison and exile in Siberia.
    The family despised Mendel. Even Sashenka’s mother, Mendel’s own sister, disliked him
    —but she let him stay. “He’s all on his own, poor sad creature,” she would say disdainfully.
    And then one night Sashenka could not sleep. It was 3:00 a.m. The summer was hot and the heat gathered in her room under the roof. She wanted some lemon juice so she came downstairs, past the portrait of Count OrlovChesmensky, a former owner of the manor, the fifteen crystal peacocks on the shelf, and the English grandfather clock, and into the deliciously cool hall with its black and white flagstone floor. She saw the library lights were still on and smelled the coffee and smoke blending in the warm, rosy night.
    Mendel opened the library door and Sashenka stepped aside into the cloakroom, from where she watched her uncle limp out with a gleam in his bloodshot eyes, a sheaf of valuable papers gripped in his clawlike hands.
    The trapped miasma of an entire night’s chainsmoking poured out like a ghostly tidal wave. Sashenka waited until he had gone and then darted into the library to look at the books that so gripped him that he was happy to go to prison for them. The table was empty.
    “Curious, Sashenka?” It was Mendel at the door, his voice in congruously deep and rich, his clothes defiantly motheaten.
    She jumped. “I was just interested,” she said.
    “In my books?”
    “Yes.”
    “I hide them when I’ve finished. I don’t like people knowing my business or even my thoughts.” He hesitated. “But you’re a serious person. The only intellectual in this family.”
    “How do you know that, Uncle, since you’ve never bothered to speak to me?” Sashenka was delighted and surprised.
    “The others are just capitalist decadents and our family rabbi belongs in the Middle Ages.
    I judge you by what you read. Mayakovsky. Nekrasov. Blok. Jack London.”
    “So you’ve been watching me?”
    Mendel’s pincenez were so greasy the lenses were barely transparent. He limped over to the English collection, the full set of Dickens bound in kid with the gold Zeitlin crest, and pulling out one, he reached behind and handed her a wellthumbed old book: What Is to Be Done? by Chernyshevsky.
    “Read it now. When you finish, you’ll find the next book here behind David Copperfield .
    Understood? We’ll take it from there.”
    “Take what? From where?”
    But Mendel was gone and she was alone in the library.
    That was how it started. The next night, she could hardly wait until everyone was asleep before she crept down, savoring the smells of coffee and acrid makhorka tobacco as she drew closer to the set of Dickens.
    “Ready for the next? Your analysis of the book?” Mendel had said without looking up.
    “Rakhmetov is the most compelling hero I have ever known,” she told him, returning his book. “He is selfless, dedicated. Nothing stands in the way of his cause. The ‘special man’
    touched by history. I want to be like him.”
    “We all do,” he replied. “I know many Rakhmetovs. It was the first book I read too. And not just me but Lenin as well.”
    “Tell me about Lenin. And what is a Bolshevik? Are you Bolshevik, Menshevik, Socialist Revolutionary, Anarchist?”
    Mendel observed her as if she were a zoological specimen, narrowing his eyes, inhaling the badly rolled makhorka that caught in his throat. He coughed productively.
    “What’s it to you? What do you think of Russia today, the workers, the peasants, the war?”
    “I don’t know. It seems as if…” She stopped, aware of his scathing stare.
    “Go on. Speak up.”
    “It’s all wrong. It’s so unjust. The workers are like slaves.