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acting unprofessionally
during work hours, but luckily he doesn’t start a
lecture.
    I’m relieved to see a little smirk and know he’s just
joking around, pretending to be annoyed and making us feel
embarrassed. I’m glad he understands that I’m not trying to cross
the line; I’m just so relieved that Starlet is back
safe.
    I
still can’t believe I’ve said all that slushy stuff, and to make it
worse I did it right in front of my older brother. I cringe with
embarrassment, wishing I had waited until we were alone
together.
    Starlet is looking shy
about the whole scene, so I grin at her and take her hand so we can
quickly make an exit and be alone.
     

Chapter
13
     
     
    We
head back to my flat to hang
out for a while and end up making out
passionately on my bed. I’m already turned on with how sexy it is
rescuing her from the police and the big adrenaline rush of doing
it.
    I start to lift
up her top, ready to take it off, but she pushes it back down
quickly and moves away from me a little, looking
nervous.
    “ What’s up?” I
ask feeling puzzled.
    “ Rickie, I
don’t want to have sex,” she tells me.
    I feel stung
with rejection. I thought she liked me and we were enjoying turning
each other on, so I’m confused.
    “ I thought
that’s where this was leading,” I say. “You seemed into
it.”
    “ I was but…”
she avoids my gaze, sounding anxious. “It’s just…I’ve never done it
before.”
    I feel
surprised, “oh,” I rake my fingers through my hair, getting over
the shock of her announcement. “I’m sorry, I didn’t know…I just
assumed you had.”
    I feel like an
idiot. She’s only sixteen, so what did I expect? I guess because
she’s pretty I thought one of her previous boyfriends would have
already had sex with her.
    “ I haven’t had
a boyfriend for two years so I’ve never gone all the way,” she
admits, a little embarrassed. “There were only a few teenagers at
Sanctuary with me so it didn’t give me much chance of a love
life.”
    I think how
awful it would be stuck in one place and unable to go out and meet
other people. Poor Starlet had been there with only a very small
selection of boys, while I’ve been able to hit the city and meet as
many hot girls as I wanted.
    “ I should have
asked about it,” I say, feeling guilty. “I guess you want your
first time to be special?”
    “ Yeah, it’s a
big thing for me,” she agrees. “I’m just not ready for it yet. It’s
kinda scary thinking of doing it to be honest.”
    “ It’s okay, I
get it,” I say, wanting her to know I understand. “So, would you
want your first time to be with me?”
    My heart is
beating with nerves and I’m nervous about getting rejected
again.
    “ Yeah, I do,”
she replies blushing. “I’ve always wanted it to be with someone
special who loved me...and now I know you do.”
    I feel relieved
and smile, feeling happy, “I’m kinda touched that you want me to be
your first. I just really wish you had been mine too.”
    I feel guilty
as I look at her and see a flicker of disappointment in her eyes at
me revealing that I’ve already had sex with someone.
    “ I was hoping
you might not have,” she says honestly, “but I knew there were
probably other girlfriends before me.”
    “ I’m sorry,” I
say, feeling a little sad.
    “ It’s fine, you
were allowed to do whatever you wanted in the past,” she says. “How
many girls have you slept with?”
    I can tell
she’s anxious about what I’m going to say.
    “ Just one when
I was sixteen,” I answer. “I’d been with her longer than any other
girlfriend so I thought it was the right time.”
    I feel bad
knowing I could have waiting for someone special, like Starlet.
Maybe then Starlet and I could have had our first time together and
it would have been perfect.
    However,
instead I had thrown it away on Nicola, a girl I only thought I was
in love with and ended up losing her after six months. My job was
getting in the way, as