Shattered Edge by A. M. Hargrove Read Free Book Online

looked at me and burst out laughing.
    I furrowed my brow and asked, “What’s so funny?”
    She shook her head and replied, “I’ve never cooked, eaten and then cleaned up afterward butt ass naked before.”
    A wave of intense jealousy vibrated through my body. The thought of her naked with another man suddenly sickened me. I almost wanted to lose the breakfast I’d just eaten. I could barely breathe.
    Holy shit! I get it now. I finally understand how she felt when she found out about me with those other women. Right now, just the thought of her being naked with another man has me reeling, let alone fucking two women at once. My God! I am such a shit! How could I not understand that? How did I not know how it would hurt her so badly? How could a man be so blind and stupid all at once? Was I that selfish?
    I grabbed my hair with both fists.
    She noticed something wasn’t right.
    “What is it?”
    I looked at her and grabbed her by the shoulders. Then I said, “I’m so sorry. I didn’t know. I never knew. Shit Terri, I’m so goddamn sorry.”
    I pulled her to me and held her against my chest and kept telling her how sorry I was.
    “Hey, Justin, what’s going on?”
    I just held her to me and I trembled with a chest full of emotions. I got to the point where I couldn’t speak. My throat got so tight and thick. I rubbed her back in circles. She tried to pull away but I wouldn’t release her. I could only get a mere “Huh uh,” out. I felt her arms go around my waist and squeeze. Then I knew I’d never deserve this woman.
    “Whatever it is, it’s okay.”
    My voice returned to me and I told her, “It’s not okay. I never got it until now. The thought of you naked with another man set me off. And then I thought about what you must’ve gone through when you found out about me and t hose two sluts. I’m a total shit Terri and I’ll never forgive myself for hurting you like that. It will take a life time...”
    “Wow. I wasn’t expecting this at all.”
    I’d blindsided her with it, but I wasn’t going to hide how sorry I was or the fact that I really hadn’t gotten it until now.
    “I don’t know how I didn’t know. I’m so sorry. I’m so stupid.”
    “Justin, you’re eventually going to have to let all of this go. I’m not over it yet. I told you that last night. It’s a work in progress. I don’t like what I see in my head when I think of it, but if we keep going there, you and I don’t stand a chance.”
    Then I asked the question I feared the answer to the most. “Terri, do you think you and I even have a chance?”
    “I’d like to think so...yeah. Because this morning was the best morning of my life. I don’t know about you...”
    “Let me tell you then. It was the very best of my life too. I never thought mornings like this existed.”
    “Then I have to hope that we have a chance.”
    I looked her straight in the eye and said, “God, I hope so too.”
    “But Justin, it can’t be only about the sex.”
    She just doused me with a bucket of ice water. “Wait! Is that what you think? Because let me disabuse you of that notion right now. The sex is only the icing on the cake honey. I would’ve waited forever for that. I put that ball in your court, if you recall.”
    “I know. But once we crossed that sex line, it changed everything. I tried not to do it, but you’re irresistible.”
    “I am?” I admit I felt like preening a bit.
    She gave me the biggest eye roll. I almost thought her eyes were going to roll right out of her head. “Oh come on Justin. Women throw themselves at you.”
    That bit was true but I quit paying attention to that long ago. Most of them were pains in the asses anyway.
    “I don’t pay attention to them,” I responded.
    “Come on!”
    “I don’t! It’s been going on since I was twelve. Look, I have a confession here. Pearce is the nice guy in the family. He’s the one with the manners. I’m the asshat. I’m the one that used women. I didn’t